Saturday, September 29, 2007
i hate friends who lie,
just because their jealous.
what the point of being friends,
if your jealous of whatever
that your jealous of.
I've had it with people like you.
im gonna forget all the friends
i ever had like you and start
a new. fuck you fucking morons.
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Friday, September 28, 2007
i hate it how people
bring you so high up there,
only for you to find out
things you never wished you found out.
somethings just dont change do they?
all im saying is im gonna change seriously.
may it be for the better or worse
it's up to you.
i wouldt be pushed around no more.
i can get new people
and forget you like that,
i dont have to rely on you.
you just think too highly of
yourself sometimes,
realitic check, your not made out
of gold. your flesh & blood
like every fucking one of us.
fuck you shithole.
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Tuesday, September 25, 2007
yesterday was really sweet,
my honey brought me to changi as a surpirse
& just miss being next to him,
in a long time.
I'll pray hard that we get to meet today
again, i really do miss him.
he hast replied me yet ):
i wonder where he is..
toodles <3
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Im feeling pretty sad the past month.
it feels different.
everything feels either different or new.
i try my best not to think too much of the changes.
but i guess i cant seem to understand.
maybe what you suggested the last time,
is what we need. maybe i dont know if this is my
emotions speaking, or how i feel in my heart.
ive been hearing one republic's new song with timberland.
and it makes me tear each time i see, think, touch things
that remind me of you. i think its just the "time of the month"
again for me. but i could be wrong
anyway here's the lyrics.
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait,
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..
That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah
I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid
bye for now ♥
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Tuesday, September 11, 2007
Hi guys i know i havet been updating
my blog in a long time and my aplogise
been very busy & now im living with my mum
so i havet got any internet connection anywhere
its sad really.
haha anyway onto bigger & better things :D
My ss & english Nlevels are finally over
Hurra! & ive got exactly 20 days
till the rest of my papers & 24 days till
its all over then sweet sweet holidays! :D
Anyway, on saturday went to work with lamc
at the ffaf concert, im pretty happy im in this productions
its really giving me alot of opportunities :D
really glad i joinned the street team anyway
i got to watch the ffaf concert for free
MUWAHAHA. jealous? xD
ouhkay i'll shut up. anyway the crowd was pretty wild.
but the american kids were rude and mean when they ordered
drinks from me. phft. oh well :]
Azza was being really spastic inbetween the concert & started
stacking cups ahaha! [:
aiyo that boy arh.
Then syg surprised me & was sweet enough to fetch me
from the concert. I ended later then i expected,
so when i finally got to meet syg, the last train was already gone.
and i was really HUNGRY! ]:
so we went to macs for me to makan then we went jalaning around ^_^
its nice to walk out late at night with the one you love.
kindda brings this extra special thrill. ahahaha.
yehh then it was getting a little late & i was feeling really tired
from work & stuff. so we shared a cab back home
then i surprised him with all the little goodies i got for free
while working. hehe
he looked so amused and happy when he received them
anyway we're meeting again this sunday :D
going to buke together
huahua i love you so much honey
SO yeah long post but i wouldt know when
will be the next time i get to post another bullitin
so YEAHHH i miss u guys trucklots.
& good luck for Na girls for nlevels
& also muslim girls that are fasting :D
toodles ♥
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Monday, September 03, 2007
Yesterday my heart pounded
faster & faster as i knew
where our conversation would eventually lead to.
I was't surprised when my gut feeling had
turned to reality.
I frozed & didt say a word
in hope for it to be a mistake,
an error, or maybe a dream.
anything but the truth.
But it was my silence
that saved me from that horrible nightmare,
as tears rolled town my eyes.
I was shedding ever tear for you
that night.
As you saw this,
you hugged me tight & ensured
me everything would be alright.
I knew you'd never hurt me like this.
I knew what you said was meant for me in the future,
i just felt so afraid at that point,
& after you made me understood what i avoid
to understand at times.
It came clear to me that you really
helping me
& never did hurt me,
at all.
I think finally understand
what real love meant that night.
I always wanted a fantasy love,
but you made me learn
a new kind of love.
A relistic one, a one where i would now
look for from you.
& i'm so appreciative
deep down inside,
cause you've helped me at so many things
that you probably never knew.
Thank you for yesterday,
you made me love you like
i loved you all over again.
I wish i could spend every hour, minute, second of my life with you.
To be burried in your arms.
To sleep soundly next to you.
Just to see your smile everyday. ♥
Take care off your leg & recover soon okay honey?
Then we can go out again and have fun ♥
& another thing sayang
baby thinks your simply
wonderful.
Thank you sayang for being here,
to teach me things that no one
would teach me.
To make me understand,
what i dont bother to understand.
To make me speak up
when i hide my feelings inside
but most of all,
Thank you syg for making me
love you like i loved no boy before. ♥
I ♥ you Ahmad Fazli
I really do.
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Sunday, September 02, 2007
Most of you know that i've had this blog in a long time.
Infact this blog contains almost 3 to 4 yrs of my life in it.
Online blogging doest seem much to some,
but it plays a special part of my life
as a read back to remember the sweet & bitter times.
Today while on the way to my mum's house.
i was thinking of what to post in my blog today.
Then it occured to me.
why use the name and the girl still waited
i guess i finally came to realise.
that all my life,
since young till now.
I've been waiting for something to happen.
i dont know what just yet,
but i sure know its something big.
I realised throughout 3-4yrs ive been waiting
for something called
love
& you've shown me everyside of love.
You've made me grown,
taught me not to live in a fantasy life
where i think love is so sureal.
and i appreciate it all,
but what happens when your gone.
who'll be here to teach me that i can make it
on my own. once your gone i cant.
your an addiction i just cant let go.
Nikita
xoxoxo
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
