Saturday, December 30, 2006
i feel sad now, i dont know why really...
i was kindda happy just now but on the way back i saw you.
it kindda hurt me to know you were trying to hide away from me.
i know i might not be the girly girl you wish i was or the girl
that will always be there for you when you needed her,
but thats just who i am.
i'm nikita, i'm not your bimbo, ah lian or minah who decides
that i'm going to fuck the next guy who i think is hot.
or i'm gonna make out with whoever i see so that my status remains.
i'm happy with where i am. who i mix with.
and you trying to make me feel like i'm not that perfect "myspace" girl
is't gonna make me feel any better. so
i just want you to know that it makes me happy to know your happy.
i really dont want us to act like strangers just cause of what happened before.
it makes me happy to know she wants you the way you want her.
i just hope the next time we meet you'd acknodlage me again.
take care. <3
xxxo,
Nikita
and merry christmas and happy new years (:
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Friday, December 29, 2006
sigh its 2.13am now and i'm pretty much bored.
haha (: been chatting with a few peeps
ruby, faz , nick , fauzi.
anyway i think i have developed interest in
the lead singer of 30seconds to mar jared leto ♥
hahaw! he's fine!
how can you not like a face like that.
tagg and tell me what you guys think ((:
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Thursday, December 28, 2006
yesterday went out with nick & faz.
first time meeting faz thought it'd turn out
to be akward those kind but turned out to be
majourly fun really.
as usual me & nick went to burger king
and instead of asking for coke,
we asked for cock light.
and faz was practically laughing at the back.
and i couldt tahan any longer i laughed damn loud.
AHAHAHA :D
after that urms we went drinking.
APPARENTLY, i got high. LOL.
but what the fuck lah.
i dont remember anything.
I ONLY REMEMBER.
i calling faz my stalker.
and throwing something at faz
and umm ummm. YEAH.
LOL. fuck my memory damn bad.
HUAHUA. when i came to my senses i
was fagging. xD
i think sticks are seriously my best friends. LOL.
nabeii. first time meet faz and already high.
Fucking funny.
ANYWAY.
today went out with daddy & nicholas.
got a few new stuff from town.
firstly, got my school shoes
then got my new white headphones. MY BABY. $49 dollars. piiang.
i paid for half & managed to persuade my dad to pay for the other half.
then bought black hair dye for school.
got my foundation cause it broke that day when i went out with epul's grp.
ERRR. and got a magazine for me to read while its fucking raining.
nabei. the rain ah. damn fucking chebaii.
tmr planning to head out with nick & charlotte.
yayyy ((:
i need to lepak outside.
HOME = BORING.
oh yeah and i'm gonna promote outing here.
ME & NICK ARE GOING FOR A GIG ON 31ST TILL 10.45PM
THEN HEADING TO MEMO TO DRINK AND WATCH FIREWORKS
THEN HEAD TO THE END OF ESPLANADE TO HAVE A SMALL BONDFIRE
WITH MARSHMELLOWS.
WHOEVER'S INTERESTED PLEASE NUDGE NIKITA ON MSN.
OH YEAH AND FUCK. DONT TRY TO BE A SMARTASS AND ASK ME & NICK
TO PAY FOR YOUR CHEBAI GIG TICKETS & FOR THE DRINKS & MARSHMELLOWS . WE'RE NOT YOUR MUM
love you peeps! ((:
xxxo,
Nikita
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Monday, December 25, 2006
yesterday was the sex, i swear.
First
when to meet syaz,
she followed me to meet him. passed him the gift
and then went to follow syaz mamam kat cini.
After
meet epul and sham.
i just love to disturb epul lah
he's so god damn fucking funny.
i took the spray can and sprayed him and he screams
like a girl its hilarious and stealing his cap is like joy.
ahaha! epul ate all the cookies! :D
LOL NEVER SHARE.
After
then i sent syaz home and fetched nick.
bought drinks went back to meet epul again
uurrrms. then epul decided to be ROBO-COP.with susu's funny chemistry goggles.
HA-HA-HA.
Then
went to memo lepak for awhile
minum sikit. fagg sikit. laughed ALOT.
ahahahaha. susu's damn funny.
nikita tells susu what happens when he was drunk the other time :
"i dont have a lanchiow (how the fuck to spell dick in chinese sia) i only have a pussy
susu: you dont be pussy lah you!
nikita: yeah i do have pussy so do you!
susu: you nak gadoh uhh?
nikita: tak pe i tau my assets bigger then your daaaahhhh
susu: how you know sia. got see mine before?
nikita : LOL. you weneer sia you!
susu: pussy.
ahahaha! fucking funny i swear.after lepaking and everything
susu, epul & the rest of the guys went back.
After
that me & nick decided to drink by ourselfs. ahahaha!
we got so fucking high laughing at every single thing
that wast even funny.
there was a point where i was like emo & tired.
nick brought me to makansutra to get cock light.
then i saw ENEMIKO.
*FAINTS*
he is my defination of fucking fine.
all guys should look like him.
i swear when i saw him i like immediatly was woken up :D
After
went to meet some other people at the rocks
after me & nick drank
she super high already
we tonned sampai pagi,
she puked from over drinking
Nick cute sia she. LOL :D
ouhkay lah i shall go now,
my adik dah marah
he want to open christmas present.
MERRY KISS-MAS EVERYONE <3
jangan minum banyak banyak! ahahahaha
xxxo,
Nikita
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Monday, December 11, 2006
i'm such a fake, a fag and such a whore at that.
i feel like taking the longest knife and poke it through my selfish heart
and slowly bleed to death.
its wrong and i know it
but i cant help but feel like i like it.
the more i hold on to what i need to express
the more i know i'll hurt you.
but i cant seem to spit it out.
i want to hold on
i want to believe
but i know at the end of the day.
its all fake.
i keep lying to make myself feel better.
i cant keep this in no longer.
i'm going to have tell you soon
before i come to a stage where i can never forgive
myself if i know i've hurt you.
i cant lie no more
nikita <3
elmo. )':
E_N?
NICKKKKK.
I FUCKING WANNA DRINK, MOSH, LEPAK, DANCE, MAKE OUT, EAT SWEETIES, STEAL EPUL'S CAP,HAVE SPRAYCAN SESSIONS, WEAR BURGER KING CROWNS, HIT YOUR NERDS, WATCH MY TAEKWONDO NERDS IN SHOCK AS I FAGG, HEADBANG, CUT OURSELF, CRY WITH YOU, TALK CRAP, JUMP, LAY ON GRASS AND WATCH STARS, LOOK AT DRUMMERS, GO FOR GIGS AT GAS HAUSE, HAVE MINI DRINKING SESSIONS WITH SUSU AND SUHAIMI AND AND EVERYONE OH AND MOST IMPORTANTLY OF ALL FAGG TILL NEXT YEAR AS WE DRINK AND WATCH FIREWORKS.
I LOVE YOU LUH NICK. [:
saya cinta pada kamu ♥