Nikita cinta Fazli (: ♥

Friday, August 31, 2007

i just dont know what to think of this anymore.
i just wish i could rewind back to the nineteenth.
i had so much faith in you & i thought that maybe
paitence would do the trick.
3yrs you said,
but paitence has a funny
way of making people realise the whole truth.
why? why do this to me. You know very well
i rely on friends like you.
I finally understood everything this week.
you were probably just using me.
this kindda sucks to be frank.
oh well. At least i can now move on.
knowing that maybe my love was meant for much
more special people in my life.
Like the one boy i truely love with my whole heart,
best school budies,
and the one best friend that i can always
trust and know is loyal to her friends ♥

If your wondering if i still like you my dear friend.
the answer is No.
I dont. & im sorry but this something i can never forget.
i'll try though.

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Thursday, August 30, 2007

FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND ♥

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Hi! I'm Nikita from LAMC PRODCUTIONS street team.
The street team is pretty new and im proud to say im the youngest member in it ANYWAY,

Most of you might have already heard that Funeral For A Friend is coming to singapore On the 8th of SEPTEMBER 2007 at the GLASS PAVILION Far East Square. Opening Bands for that night such as ASTRONINJA, CARACAL & A VACANT AFFAIR would be opening for this Rock Uk band.

If you've Never heard of this band before

shame on you!! Well, let me introduce more stuff on this band for you.

By the way, if you do happen to go for their concert please put in a good name for me (Nikita streetteam member of Lamc productions) just say my name to the ticket counter at far east square or any booth near the door. I'd be helping out on that day so see you kids on that night. If not it'd be nice if you guys can go to this website www.myspace.com/lamcproductions and say you've got more information about the ffaf concert from Nikita Thanks!

so, some of you have been asking me.
What happens when i say your name at the ticketing booth?
Do i get free tickets? The answer is No
sorry to dissapoint you. Here's the deal. I depend alot on friends like you
Why?
Because friends like you who support me in being in Lamc's street team can keep me up & running in this street team. This is why i depend alot on friends like you (:
so help me help you
find out more about concerts and details of the concert and if you'd like
go the LAMC website and request for your favourite bands!
Remember the more u request the more the owner would take notice of the demand. ♥

Funeral for a friend is a 5 peice band consiting of Kris Coombs-Roberts (guitarist) , (drummer & vocals) Ryan Richard,Matt Davies(vocals, lead guitar) ,Gareth Davies (base, vocals) & Darren Smith(guitarist) from Uk. They've got three ablums out so far. One called Casually Dressed and Deep in Conversation, the other called Hours & the latest album Tales dont tell themselves.

The Band's top 3 singles from the past two albums would be: Juneau, she drove me to daytime television (both singles from the album casually dressed & deep in conversation), my personal favourite streetcar (Hours).

Enough being said i have to say the Funeral For A Friend concert is going to be pretty kickass so dont miss out on the fun on the 8th of september, glasspavilion Far east square. Doors open at 5.30PM. so dont be late!

If your planning to buy concert tickets now they are going for $85 dollars TILL 7TH SEPTEMBER!!!
(ps, if u show your samsung hp's to sistic you get a discount on your ticket) If you plan to buy at the door tickets would be sold for $95 dollars.
Remember it'd be nice if you can put in a good word for me (NIKITA, Street team member)

Thank you!

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Tuesday, August 28, 2007

My thoughts at the moment
are very contradicting.
I'd go on & on about how nice
something was but be so worked up
and fustrated and confussed and a
whole lot of other emotions when
something goes very fishy.
I dont like this feeling at all.
have to trust my gut instict.
but right now i feel as though my guts
are all sqished up and not responding
to me when i need them the most. rawr.
i just cant wait for it to all end.
i need my social life back badly.
& i just wanna hang around and not give a
fuck in the world.

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Sunday, August 26, 2007

Im feeling guilty now,
how could i have been so selfish
& self centered.
Its now all coming back to me
& i finally understand.
Im glad we meet today to talk things out.
i wish i could do more to help you out.
but no matter what happens im here.
& dont worry, you've taught me so much
i know i say im not strong. but when the time comes
when i need to be strong i will, just give me time.
but thank you i know your doing this for the best for the both of us.
It makes sense now what youve been doing.
i wish you told me earlier though but its never too late (:
xoxoxo

one last thing. i dont need anyone in my life now
except certain friends, my core family (i dont need other external family members to look down on MY core family.
i know i quarrel with my father alot but i do love him he care's it just takes time to understand him but i will never agree on your methods even though your all rich & well off & smarter..) and last of all him. iloveyou. ♥
things happen for a reason. it depends on how we respond to the situation. if things dont work out base on study
i'll just admit the truth that i didt study hard enough. im honest i wouldt blame anyone for MY mistakes. thats me nikita.

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Thursday, August 23, 2007

Its finally thursday,
& time is definatly not by my side.
Ive got heeps of work & studying to finish up
and yet i get so easily distracted by
this man made box.
Argh what makes this damn man made box
so ammusing that i have to go and stare at
its damn screen everyday.
fustrating indeed.
hmm, i've also noticed that
ive gone back to being my negative self.
This is bad. expacially at this critical time.
I have to start motivating myself again,
it cant be that hard can it?
N levels..
the thing sounds pretty harmless but boy
does it do real harm to the one who'd miss judge it.
& Im not gonna take any chances, but dang
am i LAZY
i have to admit.
i am pretty god damn lazy.
must change
must improve
must do well.
i just must must must! :l
well, at least for my mother who's
gone through so much for me & my brother ♥
Oh well onto better & more postive things.
I'm meeting him this sunday! *shrieks in sheer joy*
I've missed that boy terribly.
i want him by my side in my arms,
just to see that smile once more.
its been 2 weeks but it definatly felt longer then that.
I miss you honey and i cant wait for sunday.
Oh & i might be getting my hair cut on sunday
to see if it suits me for raya! :D
if it doest at least ive got a
month before it grows back. (:
oh joy. i'm actually pretty
afraid but the earlier the better.
Here's a picture on how i hope it'd look like:

Okay i gotta go now. i need to force myself
to continue studying or im gonna be left far behind.

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

only god knows what i'd do without you says: (9:12:07 PM)
i love u
Nikita love's sweetcheeks. says: (9:12:14 PM)
i love you too

Thats all i needed to hear. (:

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Monday, August 20, 2007

before i continue this post is not emo.

people say that good things come to people who wait.
it sounds like something easy to achieve,
but i know it ist.
it takes time, willpower and a whole lot of gut.
its hard to be the only one who knows.
and i admit, it gets a little painful as time goes by.
we can only keep this between us,
cause yesterday meant everything to me,
even if it was for a little while.
Ive never shared what ive shared to anyone before.
ignorence is all that we can do.
& i hope you'll be there for me
cause i really need you.
i'm afraid of being alone.
i really truely am.

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Thursday, August 16, 2007

Im helping Auji promote his upcoming gig
and sell tickets so anyone interested
contact nikita on myspace
www.myspace.com/kikipunkette
or friendster
www.friendster.com/nikibadass

HERE ARE THE DETAILS :

ROCK ON
Date: 25th of August 2007
Time: 11am till 6pm
Place: DXO (near esplanade)

AUJI'S BAND PLAYING AT : 5.30PM *go its good* ;]

TICKETS ORIGINALLY SOLD AT TWELEVE
BUT SINCE YOUR PEOPLE ARE SO GOREgeous
IVE DECIDED TO MAKE IT TEN BUCKS.
;) anyone interested contact A.S.A.P

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

im feeling very moody today.
no seriously i am.
im stressed to my wits,
i hate exams,
and im not telling anyone about it.
(well not till now)
bahhhhhh.
i think ill go talk to someone
about my problems. anyone care
to council nikita. haha
well, at least im meeting
besties tmr. and at least
i'll have something that can
get my mind out of stuff.
i just shouldt get too involved in it
again

Now time for me to hit the showers
study for my future (yeah right...
and lose 7kg by hari raya. LOL. okay
fine 5kg? o_o
im going insane huahua.
i think im weird.
i get mood swings AFTER periods. wtf.
toodles.

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Friday, August 10, 2007

so todays a fucking boring day.
*yawn*
right anyway i noticed today
that i have suddenly wished for many new things
as you can see my wishlist has grown.
and bianca has been a real help by
teaching me stuff about camera's and photography.
haha. now all i need is a fucking good paying job.
any recomendations?
right i gotta shower now & head over to mum's place
got exams for the following whole week.
so im probably going to be in the hidings and rott at home.
dont bother reaching me.
i probably wouldt answer calls or sms's unless
your someone special
like my bestest buddies
and my super amazing kental boyfriend.
the end.
for now

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

okay today was a little weird,
i woke up at around 12 or 1pm
felt hungry as fuck. i only had lunch like yesterday
went out, missed fireworks
argh.
saw him after like forever and he kept smiling.
im suprised he noticed me. i thought he'd forget how i look like
i dont want to think much though
cause he's hurt me too much before.
I've found someone else who makes me smile
each and every day, makes me laugh whenever im feeling down
and makes me feel like a million dollars each time i am around him.
so just stop being an idiot and trying to make me
fall back for you again. NOT GONNA HAPPEN

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Thursday, August 09, 2007

Today went out with syg cause i didt go
to school. haha :) we went to marina square
went to eat yoshinoya there then saw liling
totally forgot she worked there haha :D
yeah we passed time in yoshi camwhoring
cause we were waiting to watch a movie,
we went to watch the simpsons. hahaha!
that show is seriously spastic to the max sia
cannot stand it but next show me and syg plan to watch
is alone and rush hour 3 woot. :D best babi killer whale.
After that we went to jalan around town
windowshopping :D many clothes i adore.
but the money is a problem. hopefully after my n's i can
work for the things i need and want. :D
after windowshopping me and syg started getting bored
so we too the 65 back to tampines
KIMAK. the bus sejuk siaaa.
serious. i was like chattering my teeth. and syg
just kept on giggling at me bahh evil! :D
but he was sweet enough to lend me his pakcik fazli "PF(paulfrank)" hoodie.
i ♥ you :D
yeah! i had fun today :)
my poor syg has work later today though.
poor fella. i'm going out with nick later today to watch fireworks. :)
and those going for singfest have fun without me you wankers ):
hehe kidding
I LOVE U AHMAD FAZLI :D

this is my favourite ♥

*squint squint* peace yawww

chey step garang only... :P

Fishy fishh fishhh

*muacks* yes i love you my kental king.

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Monday, August 06, 2007

Wow i havet blogged in a long time
anyway lots happened this weekend.
went to meet syg on saturday
haha he's super kental sia but he's simply adorable
expacially in macdonalds. BURPING CONTEST.
i still think i won syg. i burpped much louder then you did!
& you know it!
*bluek!* :P

Nick did some hardcore moshing on saturday
i wanted to join but i wore flats.
so we decided to go for last day of baybeats yesterday
it was pretty kick ass. but, non the less.
my heart still remains with gas haus. i guess that place
brought back sweeter memories of friendships then i formed there.
After moshing with nick went to meet syg & mike.
woot syg bought me dinner awww. what a sweetheart.
care for his brutal girlfriend so much I LOVE YOU! :D
yeah anyway on the way home syg decided to be playful
and kept on pushing me whenever i tried to walk straight.
kentalans {: haha! anyway we might be going out on wednesday
gonna see the cat exabition.
woot cute cats cant wait. :]
Anyway i gtg now need to study for english prelims tomorrow
Enjoy the pictures yawww! ♥

step one!

step two! (awww your such a sweetheart)

oi..let me eat in peace lah sia. :{

mummykins & daughter! :D we look alike kan?

credits : alex!

in arab street doing baju raye with my real mum :D

my shoes are really filthy from all the moshing :D but he still loves me despite me being stinky woot.

i love this photo of him :D

Bodyguard baru :D my honey's got muscles baby! ;] oh & dont u think he looks like the lead singer from bring me the horizon? fuck hot.

Compare the lead singer to my baby alike kan? :D

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥

Thursday, August 02, 2007

hello, its thursday yesssssss
one more day till friday
two more days till baybeats & perhaps outing with sweetcheeks
five more days till prelims
six more days till nicholas's birthday.
six & a half more days till my my 5 day holiday.
wow. Interesting Aug lined up for me.
*screams in my little voice* eight months! eight month! ^_^
i know i said i dont celebrate anniversaries till its a year but
cant a girl rejoyce for all the sweet love that she's been receiving?
I just love that boy.

Anyway guess what,
im getting mood swings
NOoOoOoOoOo!!! (okay had to create an effect there)

must be the time of the month
damn.
heh. i'm trying to control it though,
& i'm proud to say im doing a pretty good job.
Blogging with pipping hot green tea is the life.
i otta do this everyday. oh yeah plus study
of corse how could i have missed out studying
*rolls my eyes pathetically in disgust *

So he finally topped up his prepaid (:
hurra hehe yesterday i had a super lame conversation
with him on the phone before he went out.
Apparently i found out he really really enjoys lame jokes! hehe
I mean i know everyone likes jokes but he likes those really lame ones. ahahaha.
I still think he's kental. and nothing can change that.
oh & NO my kental king i am not your lame gundu head aunty.

I love you honey!

schools boring, but at least there's gossip to go around.
yeah you could say that im a gossip folk.
but seriously which one of you ist? honestly now.
look deeeep deeeeeep deeeeeeeep inside your heart.
now...lets see who's lying & being a hypocrite. heheh.
oh & i wanted to scream at her & maybe just pull all her vital organs out today grrr.

but oh well. Nikita can tahan.
Let her say whatever she wanna say about me
but i have one small request,
dont act as though you like me infront of me,
but once i have my back turned you say nasty
things and forget that i too am human.

Anyway im going off now.
i wanna find something to munch on then maybe
hit the books if im not that bored. toodles! ♥

Nikita
xoxoxo

saya cinta pada kamu ♥