yesterday after the long dreaded phone conversation i felt so crushed. so helpless. what could i have done to make the pain less painful? I know it had hurt him more then it had hurt me. After all that he's been going through. I felt like i wast good enough for him. that maybe what everyone had said was true. i felt so weak & heartbroken and soon i fell into a short yet deep sleep when i woke, i could still feel his pain in my heart it was as though i could read his every trace of though despite him not being next to me. i cried in the shower as the tears ran wild along with the purity of the tap water. in school i stayed in silence i tried to smile for a few but only knew that deep inside i was bruised. i wanted to go home as quickly as i could. hide myself probably from this truth. but no matter how much i hid under my blanket. the screams of how we we're no match filled my heart with insanity. i took a moment to write my confidence down on paper. knowing each line that i wrote seemed to be harder. in that paper i told myself i had to be strong. for myself. for you. for our love to carry on. i told myself to stay positive. this was just a phase. like any couple would have been in. Nearing the end of that powerful peice of paper i had writen in bold letters. i would never give up on our love, for anyone's happiness for that matter. I hate to see you beat yourself so much about this. it kills me to see you sad and think your not good enough for me. you know your worth everything to me. and i can now proudly say that I dont care what anyone else would say. I love you and thats all that would remain.
