Monday, December 11, 2006
i'm such a fake, a fag and such a whore at that.
i feel like taking the longest knife and poke it through my selfish heart
and slowly bleed to death.
its wrong and i know it
but i cant help but feel like i like it.
the more i hold on to what i need to express
the more i know i'll hurt you.
but i cant seem to spit it out.
i want to hold on
i want to believe
but i know at the end of the day.
its all fake.
i keep lying to make myself feel better.
i cant keep this in no longer.
i'm going to have tell you soon
before i come to a stage where i can never forgive
myself if i know i've hurt you.
i cant lie no more
nikita <3
elmo. )':
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NICKKKKK.
I FUCKING WANNA DRINK, MOSH, LEPAK, DANCE, MAKE OUT, EAT SWEETIES, STEAL EPUL'S CAP,HAVE SPRAYCAN SESSIONS, WEAR BURGER KING CROWNS, HIT YOUR NERDS, WATCH MY TAEKWONDO NERDS IN SHOCK AS I FAGG, HEADBANG, CUT OURSELF, CRY WITH YOU, TALK CRAP, JUMP, LAY ON GRASS AND WATCH STARS, LOOK AT DRUMMERS, GO FOR GIGS AT GAS HAUSE, HAVE MINI DRINKING SESSIONS WITH SUSU AND SUHAIMI AND AND EVERYONE OH AND MOST IMPORTANTLY OF ALL FAGG TILL NEXT YEAR AS WE DRINK AND WATCH FIREWORKS.
I LOVE YOU LUH NICK. [:
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
