THE BOY&GIRL ♥


HER
Nikita de souza
Turning sixteen
Red & black
Music is important to me
I believe in unicorns
& I love ally baby.

WISHLIST
repierce snakebites
PINK PSP
UNICORN TEE
POLORIDE CAMERA
ACTIONSAMPLER CAMERA
webcam for mac
new handphone
BAPE SHOES
new flats
girl boxers


GOSSIP




PLAYLIST


GOODBYE

x. Rachel
x. Vanessa
x. Evangeline
x. Maria
x. Sasha
x. Audrey Tan
x. Nick
x. Madee
x. Dorcas
x. Ng Min
x. Tricia Yeo
x. Helen
x. Syq
x. Judy Tan
x. Shiqin
x. Faris
x. Prince
x. Phy
x. Tia
x. Nicki
x. Diyanah
x. Audreywong
x. Akim
x. Venetia
x. aL
x. Ath
x. Nita
x. Ash
x. Dan
x. Syaz
x. Watt
x. Marlina
x. Natt
x. Vien
x. Zea
x. Fyra
x. Bart
x. Kak lin
x. Nikita`s friendster
x. Nikita`s myspace
x. complainabouteverything
x. DAISHO DISCREET
x. PBCLG`s myspace
x. Cohrod syndrome myspace grp
x. Pukiwarriors


GRATITUDE

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Sunday, August 27, 2006

hey peeps
on friday after school went to meet up with aL to play pool
met his cousin & sister nice peopls yup2
on the way back i meet zean from myspace!
pretty pretty girl haha!
was kindda shock she regonised me (:
after that met nicholas and went to mummy's house

On saturday the usual lah had tuition
the mummy went for haircut
so me and nicholas home alone watch tv cause there was nothing to do?
once mummy came back went to set up the bbq pit in the garden
so had a family bbq dinner
me nicholas mummy and chris
was very nice :D hahaha
after the bbq chris taught me french! :D
& now i know how to have simple conversations in french!
hehe how fun! it seemed difficult at first but it seems easier once u get the
hang of it. Its easy! :)

today went home after lunch
nicholas had his upgrading
so i was alone at home the whole dayyy
but i made friends with someone and yeah!
i had like company throughout the day (:
yay! hamsters. hoho.

i sent her a mean sms.
and she replied saying she learnt her mistake.
yet everyone deny's it.
i want to play pretend and act as though you've learnt your mistake
but you keep lying over & over again
to cover up your mistake.
come clean quick
before everyone gives up hope
including me.

later

Nikita ♥


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Thursday, August 24, 2006

Hey peeps its been a while since i've last posted
anyway on sunday went out with aL
for some emo/breakup/forget shopping spree thingy
haha i bought 2 new shirts [bullet for my valentine band shirt & some mod shirt]
and a new bag (: the bag is so freaking cool.
hehes anyway aL being a typical boy didt know what the heck to buy
so he ended up buying a shirt he wanted to buy the avengence 7fold jacket
but too ex. haha (might be getting that for his birthdayy but must share with someone arh! so ex!!)
ahaha after went shopping we went to lepak at esplanade
charlotte suppose to come but her mum ):
booo after that went to marina square more window shopping ahaha.

the rest of the days monday-wednesday
were practically full of gossip, rumours, hatered confussing
had photo taking they turned out pretty cool (:
haha me maria si ling and yossie funny la the pics but still freggin cool
kindda sad evan wast there =[
tsk tsk i wouldt mind her too but she dunno lar lets not talk bout it.

okie tooodayyy
i went to go get ready for fnn cooking test
my maid and me were like slaves in the kitchen!
we were like trying and trying to make the rempah for the mee rebus
ahaha hilarious i hope i dont screw up tomorrow!!
oh yeah mummy said i can go for farhans bbq on friday for his birthday
woots shit now i gotta get 2 fella's birthday gifts!
argh! i'm so BURNED! lol
bye bye $$$
ahaha okie dokie rawrrr i hate ca2.
thinking about all these matters have affected my results.
SEE LARR =_=
dammit i shud have forgotten you when i could.
nvm! I DIE DIE DIEEEE
MUST STUDY SUPER HARD FOR SA2!

I MUST DIE DIE AT LEASTTT PASSSS MY MATHS.
DIE DIEEEEE. argh rawrrr!
i'm gonna do it for my mama. (:
i love my mum rawr!
& chris is always there for my mum happy he's somewhat like my stepdad (:
anyway DADDY IS A PAIN.
seriouslyyyy rawrr!
lemme immitate him for you guys and tell me how irritaiting can this be!!


*" nikita when your daddy comes home come and say hello daddy... how are you... daddy...i love you...daddyy..are you still
alive..." OMG my dad is not only lame but super efghuoaiuhg!?!?
its like soo mushy
YECKS.
=_= i am so not use to my dad.
he is weirrd no wonder i'm the same O_o

HOLIDAYS COMING! :D in 3 more schooling days!
i'm so lovin this eleven days of holiday!
hoho i have a strong felling this holiday is so gonna kick ass ;)

oh yeahs a little advertistment here before i end.

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vent your anger on my little black book!
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<3 all of you are loved take care laters!


Nikita ♥
jangan lupakan saya.


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Friday, August 18, 2006

hey guys,
its officially over. lots of things are officially over
yerp a month and a day. thats over
our friendship is officially over
my school life is a wreck.
maybe what she said about me was true.
i'd probably go ite. -_-
if i'm lucky poly.
wtf. i hate this
anyway i was quite pleased that he was honest unlike
the other guys i've dated who "claimed" their
sister asked to break up with me or they had to break up to study and shit like that
yeah anyway today ist the bestest day ive had in like this entier year
1) Broke up with him
2) Failed my maths
3) Had a huge fight between me evan maria vs audrey wong audrey tan and rebecca
ARGH god dammit. i need mommy.
i want my mom. she makes me strong argh
if i dont see her i think i'm gonna need those sticks again real bad
and i stopped long time ago! no. no. i need coffee.
yesh thats all i need.
i need loud screamy music.
i need my black pen and my drawing book
i need coffee
i need ben and jerry's
and i need awhole lott of other stuff but heck.
i'm not so spoilt.

hear this song.
it really hits the spot.



Lyrics
Dear Jamie,
I've got a letter I would like to send.
It's lacking strings of words with punctuation at the ends.
Should I trust this dialect
To convey the right effect?

Dear Jamie,
I've got some things I'd like to set in pen.
I would have used a pencil, but lead's just not permanent.
Should I trust my printer's ink
To express the things I think?


Every page I tried my best to think of something to contest with
Inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say.


Dear Jamie,
This envelope will represent my heart.
I'll seal it, send it off, and wish it luck with it's depart.
This stamp will be every action that carry my affection
Across the air, and land, and sea.
Should I trust the postage due?
To deliver my heart to you


Every page I tried my best to think of something to contest with
Inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say
Every page I tried my best to fill with something to contest with
Inside jokes and other folks who've got much more to say


Give you all I can
Flower and a hand
I hope this helps you see
Signed,
Sincerely me.

later guys

Nikita


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Thursday, August 17, 2006

hey peeps ):
having the flue today and i wouldt stop
sneezing or blowing my nose.
its like a never ending action

*takes tissue*
*blow blow*
*throw*
*take tissue*
*blow blow*
*throw*

hoho and thank you fello classmates
who would give me their packets of tissue for my very wet nose.
hoho (:
anyway, guess we're having another disagreement
again. i dont know ):
i dont like disagreements. booo..
the worse part of it all.. is that today is our ann
and i feel like fuiweofniucne.
yeah that didt make sense but yeah
i feel like a bunch of swear words all squashed together
to form this long and new swear word.
why cant everyone just smile and laugh *i know i hardly do that but i'd like to*
maria & evan eventually cheered me up but i cant laugh
when you have the flue it sucks and i'm being
forced to go to taekwondo noooo
this is outrageous. i demand a break.
ahahahaha
i'm crazy anyway maria and i planned to go
to orchard tomorrow after our last paper.
but now i'm just feeling too lazy
HOHO. -_-
lala okay i need to get ready for tkd...
anyway ruby! :)
have fun at inxs okayyyyyy
help me and my friend recorddd :) yayness
haha thank you babe! :D me and vanny <3's you lots for that
listen to this song! (:
i'm gaga over it now oh yeah and also try finding
the song "dear jamie" from hellogoodbye
i melted the first time i heard that song. and...the emo part comes in.
laters!



Nikita


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Wednesday, August 16, 2006

hey peeps (:
today was lit paper, kindda happy with how it went
at least i didt get writers block like i usually do.
after school today went to study geo
really want to do well for geo. anyway i need to thank maria and evan alot
thank you for helping me out you guys are the best (:
anyway after that went home umm had dinner,
yup and now i'm online i should be studing?
but i decided to sleep early and wake up early to study.
hopefully i'll get to absorb better that way. *i hope*
yup2 (shuffles my feet) argh. =/
nvm. lol moment of weakness hoho.
anyway i'm still hating daddy and yeah.
i hate him
why does the world seem to doubt me all the time.
BLEAH. =[
I AMMM NOT A KIDDDDD.
god dammit.
nicholas thinks i'm a lousy sister yayayaya. i am what. -_-
daddy thinks i'm a lousy daughter yayayaya. i am what. -_-
(infact he has no daughter.. according to him)
a certain friend of mine thinks i'm going to ite cause
i play lots and hardly study -_- yeah what.. i'm sooo playful.
bleah bleah bleah. I'M LOUSY.
yarda yarda yarda. BOO.
lol okay i'll shut up and get ready for bed.
Nytes peeps!

Nikita


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Tuesday, August 15, 2006

hello peeps
okay my dad SERIOUSLY sucks balls grrr
NAG & NAG & NAG
omg like woman shut up can!!! (-_-)
anyway today was maths and ss exam dont wanna talk bout it
so yup2 i hate exams anyway lemme see,
i had ben & jerry's today :D was just in the mood for it
and nicholas agreed to belanjar me. so yup!
haha thank you my beloved brotherrr ^_^
cause it rainned all non stop whee
rainy days are great for emoing
any hows once i've showered & done with stuff
i'm going to full study mode for my lit. hoho
i gotta pass lit & geo in order to do well for my ca's
cause my maths, ss, science and english suck balls.
hoho anyway i forgot to post this!
its a video of me acting weird errr i think 4 months back or was it 3 months
at esplanade with my friends
and a picture of me and nicholas during national day parade (: hoho enjoy!






Nikita ♥


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Monday, August 14, 2006

hello peeps just gonna post stuff before i head to bed
well lets see today was science & english test hoho
english went well i suppose
but science was a tough cookie. argh it was so chemistry and sums and sums
BOO. after school went to meet arie at plaza singapura's mac
hoho so funny la i walk to macs searching high and low
for him and there he just sits patiently not making a move. AYE!
lol most of the time he was fiddling with my phone :D
cause daddy bought me the memory card FINALLY. 512MB. yeah
woots anyway watched a few videos on his lappy
used myspace errrr. watched him sleep HOHO
this fella not malu to sleep at macs :)
anyway stayed until 5 only arh cause he want to potong rambut
then i also need to study hoho
when i came home realised i couldt sms! then the whole time
he and me online trying to figure out why cannot sms
tsk tsk. then me being kuku dont understand a thingggg he was saying arh
must be said in high details then i faham HOHO :)
anyway in the end i figured it out somehow or another but
i must say he's really sheer genius i mean even i couldt
have figured what ever he did HOHO.
and finally i'd like to sayyy
MY DAD IS A REAL NAG
AND I REALLLLYYYYYY HATE HIM.
i still am not forgiving him about that day
even though he bought me the memory card
which i feel is a form of bribary to make me forget
HOHO nooo. i hate him
anyway gonna snooze already arhhh
sleeppppy :D whoohoo
nytes nytes!
vannyyy yoou never told me whats happening INXS?
yes or nooo.
if not going inxs right i might be using the ticket to watch
Plain sunset with him. hoho
SO MAKE A CHOICE :D
OLD ROCKER MAN OR NEW ROCKER MAN. HOHO.

Nikita


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Sunday, August 13, 2006

hey peeps! decided to post stuff before i head to bed (:
hmm lets see on friday went to mummy's house
went for nicholas dinner party thingy well it wast a party just the four of us
but more like a family dinner thingy haha the food was seriously goood :D
but i'm trying oh so hard to avoid meat! ):
its hard when your mum is forcing you not to be vegan and stuff hoho
anyway we were still sort of bikkering about stuff on friday and i really
taught we were going to break and stuff till saturday came along hoho
its seriously funny how sometimes fights bring people closer (:
on saturday he asked me out to watch the fireworks and stuff and lets just say
things went pretty well (:
woots hawhaw. feeling ghey
anyway today i did last min studying (as usual)
and managed to finish most of my science woohoo
daddy got me my memory card at last! :D
and VANNY! ):
persuade your dad to let you off for inxs!
you&me we a team babe! :D old rocker men! Hoho! we were suppose to get randy
and down with it :D hehe! anyway tell me soon okay!
cause my mum backed out last min and my only solution is you & me :D
whee pop okay gotta head to bed now feeling uberly tired
I HATE PHOTOSHOP! ):
everytime i edit my pictures they are too fucking huge to put into myspace or friendsterrrr
that sucks balls!! hoho
later!



Nikita


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Thursday, August 10, 2006

okay todays thursday..
i just got my time of the month
explains all the pmsing
i am in absolutly no mood to do anything
and when i mean anything in seriously mean anything
i dont feel like going for tkd i dont want to eat and i just wanna lay in bed.
yesterday went to ndp was kindda cool
but on the way back, starting emoing..
must be the pms i dont know
yeah had a disagreement with someone,
and today it seemed as though i dont know..
usually it takes alot of guts for me to say sorry,
ask maria. she knows me best.
but when i said sorry and it came back right back at me..
i dont know. i emo-ed all noon.
oh heck. now i seriously, am in nooo mood for tkd.
later.



its night now, and i'm feeling fucked up with my dad..
we just fought and here comes the hand on the face again.
yeah so i'm crying my eyeballs out now i think i'm heading to bed now...


Nikita


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Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Hey peeps (: been a while since i last post
lets see hmm, where should i start
maybe saturday haha! i went on a shopping spree with kak liza!
uberly fun! mummy oh so randomly gave me and kak liza 50dollars to
go shopping so me and nicholas and her went shopping round town
i bought myself a mini bag and 2 teeshirts! i'm so in love with
one of the shirts haha! super nice tralala!
after buying stuff, kak yun came to join us but abit too late lar
in the end me & nicholas went back to mum's place (:

okie on sunday went back early was suppose to go
and meet arie for some wedding but then there was a change of plans
so just meet him to watch his floorball match (:
haha! he was hilarious lar he made some guy fall down
then he still act sotong like he did nothing :D
then he had to like sit for 2 mins and he was like some small boy! LOL
i was like the only one giggling in between mus and helmi
they both arh super into the game. haha but overall
it was cool watching my first floorball match haha
super rough sport BIG BIG DUDES.

okay now moving on monday err,
it was so-so lar emoing
did 2.4 and passed :) need to thank step carol and karen
for pushing me hahaw! thank youuuu.
hahaha called arie at night and he helpped me out with my malay
haha! :D he was like trying to explain stuff
obviously i was all sotong and stuff lar,
like blurrr queen. oh well

Today! okay i'm feeling the aftermath of running
2.4 sucks!? okay umm today was alright completed my fnn work
good then old fart cant nag and call me rebelious anymore. BOO
hahaha (: lemme see, laughed alot during cme has this sexual
talk it was so damn crap lar can?
the dude was like "you cant seperate your soul from your body"
"when a male and female become one skin is during sexual intercorse"
and i'm like wtf.. this is seriously uncomfortable.
LOL. anyway sonia and step koh
decided to have the chalet during national day that time
cool! (: i'd be like a chalet/study before ca2/fun/pillowfight
thingy? LOL hilarious (: oh heck
oh yeah no tkd today! =D WOOOHOOO.
i was praying for none today
and the teacher did call! ITS SHEER MIRICAL I TELL YOU! =D
later peeps!


Nikita


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