hey peeps yesterday was really a confussing day for me. i found out way too many thing that i really did not plan to hear in the next 100 yrs or so. ummm yeah well one of the news i found out was that umm she likes likes me. umm i mean i like her but i dont think i like like her... and i dont know how to tell her without hurting her feelings.. i mean she really liked me. damn. i dont wanna be the evil one here and tell her...i'll break the poor girls heart. she's sweet man. but nawh...
another thing that was confussing was that i dont know i feel toward her..my eyecandy. I mean i KNOW i'm straight i FEEL STRAIGHT. but when i see her... everything just falls apart.its like i'm willing to change everything about me just to know her a little better...i know it sounds sick i cant help but feel sick re reading this again but ITS SO FUCKING DARN TRUE. today i saw her in class like so damn feeling low. i felt so darn sad after that la...but before that i saw her all cheerie.. she made me smile and forget about my moodswings...AHH!?! I'M STRAIGHT GOD DAMMIT. grrr i hate this... oh yeah and THANK YOU JOHNATHAN for teaching me blue belt pattern can go grading this sunday if i get red belt i'll thank you like siao! :D tehehes.
yeah if my eyecandy knows about this AHHH. godness. hahaha i have a strong feeling we say bye byeee. xD i kindda like where we are now. close yet not close. you get it...in the meantime...i'm proud to say... I'M STILL STRAIGHT. WOHOOOO..(who wanna bet that this would't last turn bi by the next month HAHAHA kidding byes)
