hey i just found something that sort of strucked me really deep inside my heart. i taught we were okay now but it seems to be maybe all of us still have our doubts. Maybe i havet tried hard enough but here i am TRYING i dont understand i tried my best dont you all see i left THEM in hope of us being close again maybe i just havet met your expectations i just want you to know its a little fucked up cause i miss the times we had trust me its just hard to act all normal when we're all not giving each other that chance maybe i dont give you guys that chance too but here's the truth...i miss u so..its hard to cough it out like some lie but this time it aint no lie i do miss u guys. sure i talk to her a little more then you guys maybe cause i still have my doubts but i dont shut totally from you guys..i just find it a little hard to talk to you both together cause you both seem to be agaist me and maybe to the both of you i seem to be shutting away but i'm just scared of the outcome so i shy away. and just cause i talk with her more...doest mean i talk to her about guys all the time...the both of us are close friends and guys are just one of our fav subjects to talk about we talk about other stuff too...but hey heck..thats your guys option...i just want to say... I tried. and if you guys arnt satisfide then fine.. we'll just remain this way
