Wednesday, April 26, 2006
today is a weird day i feel veryyyy
DAZED.
like so stoning in one corner...
i told mummy about yeah the whole shit.
i think she's freaked out..
arghhh i knew i shouldt have told her...
dammit la..
exam is like on friday and i'm still slacking.
fucking nabei. argh
bye...
Nikita
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Saturday, April 22, 2006
Yesterday was SUPER DUPER FUN :D
haha i went around with a cardboard sign on me promoting 3MM's bizza both
and with my shades on ;D
hehehe i went around school shouting lelong lelong fans for sale. so dumb yet fun
i look damn pathetic xD but well...heck la
at least our class made money can already all the things that i taught would be IMPOSSIBLE to sell
actually managed to be sold. HAHA.
well...all i gotta say is omg. the suckers.
AHAHAHA okay mean mean.
and way me and maria we were eating on the job xD
We were suppose to be promoting our class stuff then this girl
with VERY TEMPTING COOKIE BOX. came and asked us if we wanted to buy her cookies
so we did HAHA OH MANNN. it was god damn fucking nice.
argh i gotta get my hand on the recipie.
ahahaha. so yeah me and maria bought and ate then slack a while walk her scream there
then we were almost desperate to sell this toys that we had in our hands that maria kept on
making me la.. she keep on asking joyce to buy grr..
i'm okay with joyce la..but she keep on giving me "the look"
i dont like
"THE LOOK"
bahhh. anyway when almost everyone was gone 3J girls were still working hard selling
their roses ahaha. rebecca like one ah ma sia. xD
so i just bought one rose from her and ONE candy ahahaha
i gave it to her. xD
*melts* ((: haha well i didt give it to her like that pass to maria
who passed it to mich
who THEN passed it to her.
i was scared to see her reaction la.. =x
but to my surprise she liked it :D
cool man ;) guess i do have it still as a girl or a ahems! :D
hahaw. then after that i stayed till maria's sis finished her track so can go tiong way to go home.
then when we were going home that time noticed she started her mood swings again haix.
me and maria both agreed we have a bittersweet situation
blah one min give me warm fuzzy feeling
hext kana cold shoulder. dammit la.
hahaha but nvm.. TIME! time will only tell..
bleah anyway just now i saw this REALLY
REALLLLLLYYYYYY GOOD LOOKING MALAY BOY.
dang he made me high ;D
he so god damn hot can.
BEST PART!? HE WINKED AT MEH
COOLIOUS. bleah but he stay tamp area haiya... so far...
i stay outram wth. haha nvm solidified sugar.
HAH! omg i player la. nvm i gtg nowwww
<3 evan <3 maria <3 rebecca <3 auds
Nikita
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Thursday, April 20, 2006
hey peeps ((: today is well a reasonably good day
haha err in the morning i slack whole day ahaha
cause i never bring my apron for fnn then i was the only one who didt cook
haha nvm i had fun on my own. xD i drew and wrote songs bwahahaha
then mrs chu very randomly sat at the same table as me and asked me why i cut my hair
and said i cut my hair for who
ahaha errrr (x it was damn funny la haio.
so i just said hot ma alot of activities then she said why now adays i so rebelious
wth? ahaha okay la. punks suppose to be rebelious i guess but no leh
i did think i rebeled with her in anyway she said cause i never bring HER apron kisiao.
ahahaha i'm mean sia.
errr then it was lit wast paying much attention err then recess errr same old story..
umms then was maths i passed her class i think she just woke up or she just cried..
hmm yeah so she had this really moody look so i just walked away wahhh tricia kept
on pulling me to see her la and i was like no need nvm if i see her then i see her if not then nvm
ahahaha then miss chen like never come puntually to maths class la ahahaha so we slack till she came
then the whole class act quai la so fake ahahaa :D
then was chem during chem so boring la...
i found a paper clip undid it and made two hearts with it.
one was big and one was small :) cute
errr then after that went to miss phee's classroom to discuss about tomorrows bazza
i was in the class when joyce and des pass by la. i wanted to hide but they saw me already
hahaha then they kept on walking up and down the class la PAISE LEH. then wanru they all kept on making fun of me
AHAHA. dammit in the end wanru help me ahaha
she shouted to joyce "oi dont look at my girl" AHAHAHA.
funny sia. ((: i think she panick after that
hmmm after that went for SYF dance i kept on looking at SS.
:) auds said her click kept on looking at meh. dunno suppose to be good thing or bad.
after SFY went tiong with maria evan rebecca des mich and her.
shes so..... indescrible wahahaha xD
got cardboard from the carpark at tiong ahaha. funny...
errr after that took cab home lor..
ahaha liddat. xD
so yup now still awake slacking so lame shit. arh
when will you understand me?
when will you want me?
when will you learn to accept me?
when will it all happen
only to find out you were pretending everything
you felt for me.
when will it happen
the day you will tell me those dreadful words
when will it happen
the day you'll turn your back agaist me
and cry slowly..
Nikita.
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Wednesday, April 19, 2006
hey peeps yesterday was a goooood dayyy :D she huged me argh *blush*
but today i dont know :x
cause i just got my new hair cut it looks nice to me la..
i mean most of my class peeps liked it people like wanru praveena anissa
hahaha but i dont think rebecca and evangeline liked it
CIKGU liked it AHAHA.
after school had to stay back a while la.. miss phee ask community member help for the bazza.
then she ask to sweep classroom no extra broom so decided to borrow from miss koh
then when i went there...
SHE WAS THERE. ahhh
i had no chance run to toilet see hair first then see her wtf la.
grrrr. so she saw my messy errr hair.
ahaha. okay her reaction was the best today hahaha thats why i like her!?
x_x first she screamed at the TOP of her lungs. like really scream like someone raping her that kind of scream.
then she shouted top of her lungs. "YOUR HAIR NIKITA!? LIKE BOY!"
errrr so i dont really know if thats suppose to be a good thing or not la.. so i dunno..
hahaha =/ funny la..i scared she dont like haix.
OH WELL.
my hair short short LOOK SO PUNK (at times)
okay this is the story of my new hair
with wax my hair looks so punk & emo.
without wax my hair looks so messy and i look like those dogs who cant see due to their long fringe
AHAHAHA. so stupid anyway maria's sister gave me "the look"
AHHH. =/ so i think its bad la..
so stupid grrr my hair when i say i gonna chop it off and when i do i regrette but..
OKAY LA.. not as bad at primary 4 hairstyle
you guys otta see that HA thank god you all cant.
anyway yesterday durning taekwondo guess what the hell happened la...
I KICKED THE BOARD AND IT BROKE.
AHHHHH *hides face from the world*
do you know how paiseing that is...
hais. =/ anyway mr santos face was like at first so angry
then half way through ok ok
then end of class started laughing
then when class ended i asked him how the board
then he said nvm just give me lots and lots of kicks and it'll be ok
so i was like errr AHAHA? okay! ;D
okay i gtg now buh byes
Nikita of the nikiest nikkies
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Monday, April 17, 2006
Hey peeps guess what i've got my red tip Hell yeah! :D
happy happy sia. i'd like to thank jackie and tom yam for making me less scared
AHAHAHAH thank jonathan for teaching me pattern and yeah the rest who were there xD
i'm mad ahahahas anyway TODAY I A GOOD DAY. GOOD GOOD DAY
*smiles from singapore to the other side of the world*
AHHH. when i found that out i just couldt stop being all SMILY.
mans. *blush* :D I GONNA CUT woots
tomorrow after tkd. scared leh... scared later it looks like shit.
then kak liza was like nvm nothing gel and wax cannot solve so..
Hmm i guess i'm gonna give it a shot. ;D
I PRAY HARD it turns out nice. anyway yeah gotta go do homework la. if not i tell you
i can slack infront of computer till no tomorrow... AHAHAHA.
byeees.
Nikita of nikitest nikkies. :D
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Friday, April 14, 2006
hey peeps i am dying of bordem. anyway argh
i dont get guys never do. darn it. maybe thats why
this time i am damn possitive about turning..
=x i dunno lar.
today his birthday then i tried to be nice
sms him happy birthday and tried to sound cheerie
but just got a thanks back not that i'm complaining or anything
but aiya. thanks only make me feel as though he dont care
ahhh die. then i told jonathan yesterday about how i felt
and told him i think we shouldt be together till i firgured out
who i really liked and he was quite understanding
but i cant help but feel as though he's sad and angry
oh well heck. i really need to find out. so uhuhs.
i dont careee i wanted to go out today
but raining. so sad i'm scared for sunday grading...
mr santos told me i dont put enough power when i do my pattern..
i scared dont get promoted. die lar...
then have sparing on sunday i scared my oppenent will be nonny
not that i fear her or scared of her..
but its true man she's better then me. A WHOLE LOT. better
she's got the fundimentals there and she's flat chested. ADVANTAGE. dammit.
i just hope and pray i get red tip.
hahas. wanna see my msn name for her.
i found it so.. NICE. LOL
I'll be your caramel if you'd be my sugar :) i'm willing to change everything about me to be with you!
nice right hahas okay la i go now. raining cold sia. bored. arghhh can something big happen now?
like maybe....i wonder...hahahas nawh nvm its just me talking to myself now byes
Nikita. girl there's something about your smile. and your attitude that makes it more exciting
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Thursday, April 13, 2006
Oh mans oh mans oh mans.
I've made up my mind :) and auds i know you dont like the idea.
but let me try out expariment. :D ahahas.
anyway i made my mind because i found out the real him
and sad to say. i'd rather be friends with him :) i plan to tell him later by sms.
blah okay umm anyway today was a really funny day in the morning her friends passed me the letter to read
hmmm it was okay lar. then auds went to write for me a reply note for her still havet passed to her.
errr what else happened today... umm hmmm, i sneezed alot my nose is like as tap of water la...
non stop flowing. eeerrr. (x
umm what else happened today.. OH YEAH TODAY TAKWONDO ROCKS!?
lol played "hockey" played tug of war hahas so fun cant stand it. the kiddies are
OH SO ADORABLE.
:) anyway i wanna go now i cant think of anything to say.
and you dumbasses out there.
theres a different between OBSESSION, LOVE and LIKE.
Right now I like ss nothing more yet.
once if i know she feels the same way then i will move on.
AHAHAS AND VIEN WANNA MAKE ME STRAIGHT lol
he darn cute see what he typed on msn making me laugh like siao
I like CUTE GIRLS with shiny braces :D
and another one he typed MALAY GIRLS TURN ME ON XD
omg the man is a killar.
Nikita thanks vien to make her feel better :) much loved.
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Wednesday, April 12, 2006
Hahas hello peeps i saw her today but so malu to come near her until she get wrong idea! then she taught i avoiding her? Nooooo!! LOL but dammit must start to forget her I'M STRAIGHT I'M STRAIGHT I'M STRAIGHT. grrr.
hahas i'm physco lars. then today des kept on making fun of me lar. eh wahlaus. :( i dont know how to look at her without going man...how am i going to break it to you that.. i dont like like you the way you like like me!? :X
she's like once innocent thing. then i'm one poison bad news shotting into her brain hahas i'm mad.
BUT i must remember i AM STRAIGHT yeah. :D okay. (well at least for now)
hahas lala. hmm havet done my malay suckie sucks. damn.
then later got tuition somemore. aiyarrr.
hahahas xD maria's making fun of me and my solified sugar oi..dont liddat larr..
xD hahas anyway I'M SO SORRY BUT I DONT LIKE LIKE YOU YOU HAVE EVERY RIGHT TO HATE ME. AHHH.
I DONT DARE TELL THIS TO YOU IN FRONT OF YOUR FACE SORRYNESS I LOVE YOU AS SISTERS :D
muacks. dont hate me damn. hahas
and its either i admire solified sugar or.. i like solified sugar. damns.
AHH?! confussing :))
ohhh i forgot to post this in! READ IT DARN SWEET.
Sweetest thing a guy could do for a girl orrrr in my case a girl could do for a girl?
; Hold her hand while u talk
; Tell her shes beautiful
; Look her in the eye when u talk to her
; Tell her stupid jokes
; Let her mess with ur hair
; Just walk around wit her
; Look at her like shes the only girl you see
; Tickle her Even if she says stop
; Let her fall asleep in ur arms
; Tease her
; Let her tease u back
; Stay up wit her all night when shes sick
; Watch her favorite movie
; Kiss her forehead
; Write her letters
; Let her wear ur clothes
; When shes sad,hang out with her
; Buy her ice cream
; Let her take all the photos of u she wants
; Kiss her in the rain
; Sing her favourite song even though you know you suck
; And when u fall in love with her tell her
hahas sweet huhs? :))
gtg now byeees
Nikita + solified sugar + HER = A HUGE MISTAKE.
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Tuesday, April 11, 2006
hey peeps yesterday was really a confussing day for me. i found out way too many thing that i really did not plan to hear in the next 100 yrs or so. ummm yeah well one of the news i found out was that umm she likes likes me. umm i mean i like her but i dont think i like like her... and i dont know how to tell her without hurting her feelings.. i mean she really liked me. damn. i dont wanna be the evil one here and tell her...i'll break the poor girls heart. she's sweet man. but nawh...
another thing that was confussing was that i dont know i feel toward her..my eyecandy. I mean i KNOW i'm straight i FEEL STRAIGHT. but when i see her... everything just falls apart.its like i'm willing to change everything about me just to know her a little better...i know it sounds sick i cant help but feel sick re reading this again but ITS SO FUCKING DARN TRUE. today i saw her in class like so damn feeling low. i felt so darn sad after that la...but before that i saw her all cheerie.. she made me smile and forget about my moodswings...AHH!?! I'M STRAIGHT GOD DAMMIT. grrr i hate this...
oh yeah and THANK YOU JOHNATHAN for teaching me blue belt pattern can go grading this sunday if i get red belt i'll thank you like siao! :D tehehes.
yeah if my eyecandy knows about this AHHH. godness. hahaha i have a strong feeling we say bye byeee. xD i kindda like where we are now. close yet not close. you get it...in the meantime...i'm proud to say... I'M STILL STRAIGHT.
WOHOOOO..(who wanna bet that this would't last turn bi by the next month HAHAHA kidding byes)
Nikita I LIKE HER. OMG.
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Monday, April 10, 2006
hey i just found something that sort of strucked me really deep inside my heart. i taught we were okay now but it seems to be maybe all of us still have our doubts. Maybe i havet tried hard enough but here i am TRYING i dont understand i tried my best dont you all see i left THEM in hope of us being close again maybe i just havet met your expectations i just want you to know its a little fucked up cause i miss the times we had trust me its just hard to act all normal when we're all not giving each other that chance maybe i dont give you guys that chance too but here's the truth...i miss u so..its hard to cough it out like some lie but this time it aint no lie i do miss u guys.
sure i talk to her a little more then you guys maybe cause i still have my doubts but i dont shut totally from you guys..i just find it a little hard to talk to you both together cause you both seem to be agaist me and maybe to the both of you i seem to be shutting away but i'm just scared of the outcome so i shy away. and just cause i talk with her more...doest mean i talk to her about guys all the time...the both of us are close friends and guys are just one of our fav subjects to talk about we talk about other stuff too...but hey heck..thats your guys option...i just want to say...
I tried. and if you guys arnt satisfide then fine.. we'll just remain this way
Nikita heartbroken.
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Sunday, April 09, 2006
Ahhh today so embarassing at takwondo...Sparing is seriously a killer la god it kills haha but i like it ;D makes me lose weight hehes very good but wow, seriously today i lost ALL my energy my legs are still all jelly and still wobbly! hehes..Oh yeah i fell down OMG. x_x let me hide from the world.
HAHA when i fell down i was like dammit...so freggin paise...sighs :(( hahha. but mr santos said something after class hurhur made me wanna smile after that :) its true la...takes a long time to be a good athelic..you get all the shit yet you gotta peservor...sighs. i must practice harderr!?! xD i'm planning to learn blue belt pattern by the end of sunday so that i can go grading if not....next time la but i HOPE AND PRAY LOL. i can learn by the end of this week pleaseeeee let there be a mirical.
After class i so super tired then i think he thinks i'm angry hurhurrr xD sorryness lehh
i so tired then never say bye bye proparly hahas was just so tired i wanted to fall down and sleep at takwondo class literaly...
xD hope he not anagry :(( dang i still cant find my lit paper to do corrections DANG IT. grrr :((
and after the auditions they said they tell me by tomorrow they kept on smiling :) dunno good or they smile to make me feel better sighs :( *crosses finger* anyway i'm getting headache and stomach aches dangggg. my thing come already so darnnnn PAINFUL...... =X wahhhhh :'( sniifs sniifs hahahas i hope i'm not well then i no need to go to school yay please happen *prays* hehes okay i better go get my shower nowwww ((: bye bye muacks..and remember sparing kills yet its fun xD insanity byes
Nikita feels SUPER tired and sadddd :( someone make her smile?
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