hey its 12.21am and i'm still not asleep hurra...lol yeah well...how you guys been...i'm not happy... i dunno why i somehow feel dissapointed in myself...i feel like...i've let someone close to me down haix :( and its not a great feeling trust me infact...it hurts right smack in the heart... and the worse part is if you know the thing that let this person down is actually making you feel so rotten when you taught it'd do you good :( i'm not saying anything here but sincerly... i'm not ready to let both things that i love dearly go just like that....i know i can work out something...i just need help :( major help and i'm going to need a mirical to work this one out.The mess i've gotten myself into this time is something not Nikita De Souza does....ah heck!!! I'm gonna need to work myself out here... :) And i just think i know how...[watch this space]
well i might call my darling now...or i might head to bed....or....i might just watch tv....or.....i might call my darling on the house phone and get risk being caught and smacked hard on the face by my dad....hmmm which should lil old me pick...hmm i think i'll call my darling now...lol i made him wait so poor thing hio what kidda gf am i? :P night night =) stweet dreams
