Hey people. Sigh well yesterday school reopened bad bad bad day First day and full shoot of homework overflowed my bag =.=!! Argh. well My Books are all wrong AGAIN its the same thing every year fucking bullshit.Argh me going back to school is bad...tomorrow have DnT conferm i'll be caught sleeping in class Oh yeah tomorrow also have band WAHAHAHA i'm skipping wh00t i forgot how to play and read the scores....Oh no....bad bad bad...Oh no well i'm going to sleep early anyway. He told me his phone bill shoot sky high $300sumthing holy cow.... I'm gonna get that poor boy in deep shit one day.... =.='' but......My house phone fucking hell spoilt sia. Argh >:( oh well....i might as well not talk on the phone so late i need sleep been very sleepy and i really wanna do my best this term because its streaming and stuff.... =] well i gtg eat my dinner and stuff pssst....By the way.... I told darling maybe we dun talk just for time being.... I think he angry.... =.=!! die larrrrr............Miss-comunication!??!!?!
Nikita bleah why am i still whispering?!?
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Sunday, June 26, 2005
Hey. sigh tomorrow school reopens back to being classchair -.- i'm not complaining or anything just the fact that i'll miss him a whole whole lot. I already do. Its like. Not seeing him for a long long time. Maybe even October. Thats fucking Long. sigh yesterday we meet went for the movie alot like love really funny but lots of sexual umm scenes lol. Yeah then we went for dinner with his friend gabriel. I did't finish my dinner ^.^ Darling had to eat mine. There was liver in my dinner :o eeee...LOL but darling likes it >.<>.< hehe well...so little time before school starts Argh! i can't believe it I just can't!! Its so so so FAST!!! :( damn...last night we both hugged for a long time i did't wanna let go. I know those reading this update must be thinking OMG? how fucking dramatic but, really lah i mean i....i'm like so into him? i dunno its just that i've known him for so long? its like he's probelly really the only closest guyfriend i had My bf lol i Love him much much much!!! well I'm going to end now. My eyes are all red haha. I'm so sensitive.Sigh. Good night Darling I just wanna let you know i love you so much :)
Tough, you think you've got the stuff You're telling me and anyone You're hard enough
You don't have to put up a fight You don't have to always be right Let me take some of the punches For you tonight
Listen to me now I need to let you know You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror And it's you when I don't pick up the phone Sometimes you can't make it on your own
We fight all the time You and I...that's alright We're the same soul I don't need...I don't need to hear you say That if we weren't so alike You'd like me a whole lot more
Listen to me now I need to let you know You don't have to go it alone
And it's you when I look in the mirror And it's you when I don't pick up the phone Sometimes you can't make it on your own
I know that we don't talk I'm sick of it all Can - you - hear - me - when - I - Sing, you're the reason I sing You're the reason why the opera is in me...
Where are we now? I've got to let you know A house still doesn't make a home Don't leave me here alone...
And it's you when I look in the mirror And it's you that makes it hard to let go Sometimes you can't make it on your own Sometimes you can't make it The best you can do is to fake it Sometimes you can't make it on your own
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Friday, June 24, 2005
Hey,I know your going to read this sooner or later so yeah here take a read at it. I'm not going to say much about today all i have to say to you is this.
I'm a Little Dissapointed That our day was wasted. Just Sad just a little bit,nt a lot though. I'm also in a little of dissbelieve. But.... I still Love you. All i need for myself right now is to be alone and to think about stuff.sorry i switched off my phone i really did't want me to feel bad or angry and we start another fight thats why i switched off my phone incase don't get the wrong idea i really hope you don't. But don't be alarmed.I'm not angry just need to be alone. Remember i still love you :) yeah.
Nikita (I still love you)
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Monday, June 20, 2005
Hey! It's been ages since i've blogged just decided to blog today because umm..well i felt like it? lol well tuition is actually now..but no one called for me so...hey i'm gonna take my own sweet time ^.^ well today i went on a massive hunt for my school homework. found it :) phew now i've got 2 homework and a donation card to complete :) haha well my bf is coming over on wednesday to do his homework as well so we're planning to do it together then umm maybe if my dad lets me on thrusday me and my brother and my bf gonna watch footy at tampinese :) God lord today its like all the people i wanna forget COMPLETELY popped into my mind :o thats strange. Like...Luke.. =/ he suddenly added me again on his msn then Chris..Bleah!!! Chris???!?!?! omg >:( the basterd...=/ hmm i think i better block them..hmm maria said it's a form of Blackmail... >:( hmmf... i think luke might be good this time but chris...hmm i'm not so looking forward to his "presence" LOLX yeah umm its 6.34pm haix =[ just now on the phone i had a little tiff with darling...haix... =[ umm shit i gtg tuition now bye :)
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Monday, June 13, 2005
hey its 12.21am and i'm still not asleep hurra...lol yeah well...how you guys been...i'm not happy... i dunno why i somehow feel dissapointed in myself...i feel like...i've let someone close to me down haix :( and its not a great feeling trust me infact...it hurts right smack in the heart... and the worse part is if you know the thing that let this person down is actually making you feel so rotten when you taught it'd do you good :( i'm not saying anything here but sincerly... i'm not ready to let both things that i love dearly go just like that....i know i can work out something...i just need help :( major help and i'm going to need a mirical to work this one out.The mess i've gotten myself into this time is something not Nikita De Souza does....ah heck!!! I'm gonna need to work myself out here... :) And i just think i know how...[watch this space]
well i might call my darling now...or i might head to bed....or....i might just watch tv....or.....i might call my darling on the house phone and get risk being caught and smacked hard on the face by my dad....hmmm which should lil old me pick...hmm i think i'll call my darling now...lol i made him wait so poor thing hio what kidda gf am i? :P night night =) stweet dreams
saya cinta pada kamu ♥
Sunday, June 12, 2005
Well i'm back home [dad's house] and already missing my mum's place...sure i was grounded there for like 2 weeks being stuck at home but it sure beats being here doing nothing...argh... dunno why but this holiday is like so fucking boring...i should be out coming home late!!! No studies Just for the holidays!!! i should be enjoying myself!!! shopping sleeping late But no....somebody has to control my life,damn those kids who come home late from movies and escape theme park are fucking hell lucky.Haix my life sucks.My dad lah... argh he's always picking on me!!! I'm a good kid a good tennager bleah but he does't believe in me does he? hmmm yeah so lets just forget that topic.... anyway today i found this really cool website its called ebsqart there's lots of artist works there =) i like their work lol most of them give me inspiration.. =) u guys should check it out!!! took lots of pictures there. My sunday is wasted...i wanna go out shopping...is't that what a girl my age should be doing!!! this is like so unfair my brother gets to go out with his friends and i don't??? what kind of unfairness do i get just because i'm a girl is that it!!! Yeah must be it...Damn Back to the website i was talking to you about well i like this artist called "Abril zachiel" yeah this artist does drawing of children poems and stories such as alice in wonderland & Littlebopeep...There's also this other artist called "Fabio J napoleoni" his works are interesting its more about relationship.How bad he had it i pity the poor guy cause his drawings really have this sort of impact on me...lol yeah feel the connecion :P yeah then haha okay i know i'm talking alot of boring artist but to me i think its really interesting so yeah erm there's this artist called"vicky knowles" yes he's paintings are more of like one eyed creatures there was this one painting which i found funny lol an one eyed squid a dog with two different coloured eye balls playing music and the musical notes were like birds with one eye! :P funny huh? yeah well i'd like to say more about the other artist but the website sumthing wrong all of a sudden crap :( now i gotta find sumthing eles fun to do... =/ oh well yeah Bye people *muuuuaaakkk*
