[+]nikita[+]

2008-07-07T15:12:00.002+08:00

wow,
been forever since i last posted shit here.
lives been great.
i miss ally my baby badly.
and my hormones are going wild. but oh well.
i still get bruises.
i still drink.
i still smoke.
well, 3 months till i finally
get out of that school.

i miss the past, i really do.

goodbye.

2007-10-19T01:03:00.000+08:00

so i decided to take time from my sleep
which i'm left with around 4hrs
to blog about how things have been going.

So far right now,
life's been alright really.
I've had a few ups & downs within the first
week of the holidays but it seems like
things are alright now.

i've finally gotten myself a job
at coffee bean at payar lebar i start work probably end of oct.
so drop on by whenever your free (:

Im going to be working for the megadeth
& heaven&hell concert with syg
which is going to be great fun cause we get to
dress up for halloween. :D
we plan to go as fallen angels from consantine.
syg's going to get the wings tomorrow & dye mine black (:
cant wait.

recently. ive been a little stressed
up with family problems. and my parents
have finally settled on a solution.
as much as this solution sounds fun..
it kindda scares me as i know
the responsibilities i now have to bear would be higer.
i know my time schedule would be as tight as ever
and i would definatly lose contact with many of my friends..

But throughout this difficult time..
syg has always been there for me..
He has seriously been honest with everything..
despite how much the truth hurt.
He has offered to do so many things to help me out.
and i appreciate everything.
I've promised to stop thinking negativly.
i hope i can fufill my promises to him.
I truely love him very much..

I have a feeling the year 2008 would be an
interesting one..
i cant wait for it to come by though (:
it seems like i blog less and less..
this proves something.

i am changing.
might it be for the better or worse
i dont care.
right now. i only care for these people.

1) my mum
2) my adek
3) my mum's side of the family
4) my bf
5) a few of my friends

thats all. i know it sounds selfish.
but. hey. thats life nowadays.
anyway i seriously need to go to bed.
ive got school tmr
& it kindda sucks. nights.

Nikita
xoxoxo

BIRTHDAY.

2007-10-11T15:13:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to meee :DD
i'm finally sixteen bitchasssz!

I CAN BE A BRAT TODAY
LIKE THOSE BRATS IN SWEET SIXTEEN hahaha
NOT.
:P

NC16 movies here i come (heh big deal -_____-)
thanks to everyone who wished me
or got me presents :D
i really appreciate everything!
hehe *giggles*
u guys have a great raya!

Ps, i still think the 4 spastic boys ahem ahem (willy , kamarul, kamarul nye kawan & danial
get the award for the best birthday wish yet! HAHA :D when will u boy ever stop
being spastic? <3) toodles!

Nikita
xoxoxo

imisshim!!!!

2007-10-02T17:31:00.000+08:00

Hey people, right its been
a long time since ive done a proper
post and i decided today would be
the day haha!

Anyway ive got four papers down
and only three more to go.
Hurra! ^____^
The excitement of it all is killing me
in anticipation.
I want this to be over & done
so badly. haha! [:
holidayss *does a lil dance*

Ive been pretty messed up
the pass few days,
i get irritaited at the slighted things,
i get grumpy real quickly,
i think of negative thoughts.
& yet, despite all of these "signs" of my
period coming soon, it has't.
& it gets more
F.U.S.T.R.A.T.I.N.G
when you hurt someone
unconciously.

*pouts* ):
im sorryyyyyy x10000
to whom ever i've hurt.
I truely am,
i had no rights to vent my anger on
you guys just because im having a tough time.
& ive realised my mistake.
and i promise to change my ways
as quickly as i can. ♥

yup2! anyway today i was insearch of
presents. Yes, many presents to look for.
The one thing i hate about getting presents
for people is buying something really2 nice
for them and ending up keeping it to yourself
cause you realise

"Hey! i just realised this is cool & im gonna keep it.."

tsktsk, nikita2. haha!
i was walking around with maria,
and we decided to pop by toyRus,
saw momok there wif her friend
& we chatted for a while (:
then i had to go home
cause apparently daddy's coming home early
but juding from the looks of it
im home alone yet again huahua. [:

Besok mummy wanna meet to collect
my baju raya. and buy my adek's baju
& kasot. :DD woot.
excited. $_$

hehe okay luh i shall end here,
hopefully i'll blog again after nlevels
im so malas. HAHA.
toodles bby's!!
oh & i miss my boyfiee alot. )):
*muacks2*
take care ♥

Nikita
xoxoxo

2007-09-30T20:07:00.000+08:00

sialah mood swing meter like this sia:

l---minimum---l---ok---l---moody---l---fustrated---l---MAX---l

mesti control.ape lagi nlevel dah dekat.
syg baby minta maaf okay.
kawan2 i minta maaf okay.
siape2 yang i hurt. i minta maaf okay.

Nikita
xoxoxo

angryangry

2007-09-29T12:20:00.001+08:00

i hate friends who lie,
just because their jealous.
what the point of being friends,
if your jealous of whatever
that your jealous of.
I've had it with people like you.
im gonna forget all the friends
i ever had like you and start
a new. fuck you fucking morons.

Nikita
xoxoxo

Fuckyousonny.

2007-09-28T14:06:00.000+08:00

i hate it how people
bring you so high up there,
only for you to find out
things you never wished you found out.
somethings just dont change do they?
all im saying is im gonna change seriously.
may it be for the better or worse
it's up to you.
i wouldt be pushed around no more.
i can get new people
and forget you like that,
i dont have to rely on you.
you just think too highly of
yourself sometimes,
realitic check, your not made out
of gold. your flesh & blood
like every fucking one of us.
fuck you shithole.

Nikita
xoxoxo

hello, where are you love.

2007-09-25T15:24:00.000+08:00

yesterday was really sweet,
my honey brought me to changi as a surpirse
& just miss being next to him,
in a long time.
I'll pray hard that we get to meet today
again, i really do miss him.
he hast replied me yet ):
i wonder where he is..
toodles <3

Nikita
xoxoxo

sonny.

2007-09-23T15:13:00.000+08:00

Im feeling pretty sad the past month.
it feels different.
everything feels either different or new.
i try my best not to think too much of the changes.
but i guess i cant seem to understand.
maybe what you suggested the last time,
is what we need. maybe i dont know if this is my
emotions speaking, or how i feel in my heart.

ive been hearing one republic's new song with timberland.
and it makes me tear each time i see, think, touch things
that remind me of you. i think its just the "time of the month"
again for me. but i could be wrong

anyway here's the lyrics.

You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait,
You tell me that you’re sorry
Didn’t think I’d turn around and say..

That it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late
I said it’s too late to apologize, it’s too late

I’d take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it’s turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the angel heaven let me think was you
But I’m afraid

bye for now ♥

Nikita
xoxoxo

long

2007-09-11T16:28:00.000+08:00

Hi guys i know i havet been updating
my blog in a long time and my aplogise
been very busy & now im living with my mum
so i havet got any internet connection anywhere
its sad really.
haha anyway onto bigger & better things :D

My ss & english Nlevels are finally over
Hurra! & ive got exactly 20 days
till the rest of my papers & 24 days till
its all over then sweet sweet holidays! :D

Anyway, on saturday went to work with lamc
at the ffaf concert, im pretty happy im in this productions
its really giving me alot of opportunities :D
really glad i joinned the street team anyway
i got to watch the ffaf concert for free
MUWAHAHA. jealous? xD
ouhkay i'll shut up. anyway the crowd was pretty wild.
but the american kids were rude and mean when they ordered
drinks from me. phft. oh well :]
Azza was being really spastic inbetween the concert & started
stacking cups ahaha! [:
aiyo that boy arh.

Then syg surprised me & was sweet enough to fetch me
from the concert. I ended later then i expected,
so when i finally got to meet syg, the last train was already gone.
and i was really HUNGRY! ]:
so we went to macs for me to makan then we went jalaning around ^_^
its nice to walk out late at night with the one you love.
kindda brings this extra special thrill. ahahaha.
yehh then it was getting a little late & i was feeling really tired
from work & stuff. so we shared a cab back home
then i surprised him with all the little goodies i got for free
while working. hehe
he looked so amused and happy when he received them
anyway we're meeting again this sunday :D
going to buke together
huahua i love you so much honey

SO yeah long post but i wouldt know when
will be the next time i get to post another bullitin
so YEAHHH i miss u guys trucklots.
& good luck for Na girls for nlevels
& also muslim girls that are fasting :D
toodles ♥

Nikita
xoxoxo

rattatolie night sonny cries & i.

2007-09-03T17:50:00.002+08:00

Yesterday my heart pounded
faster & faster as i knew
where our conversation would eventually lead to.
I was't surprised when my gut feeling had
turned to reality.
I frozed & didt say a word
in hope for it to be a mistake,
an error, or maybe a dream.
anything but the truth.

But it was my silence
that saved me from that horrible nightmare,
as tears rolled town my eyes.
I was shedding ever tear for you
that night.
As you saw this,
you hugged me tight & ensured
me everything would be alright.

I knew you'd never hurt me like this.
I knew what you said was meant for me in the future,
i just felt so afraid at that point,
& after you made me understood what i avoid
to understand at times.
It came clear to me that you really
helping me
& never did hurt me,
at all.

I think finally understand
what real love meant that night.
I always wanted a fantasy love,
but you made me learn
a new kind of love.
A relistic one, a one where i would now
look for from you.
& i'm so appreciative
deep down inside,
cause you've helped me at so many things
that you probably never knew.

Thank you for yesterday,
you made me love you like
i loved you all over again.
I wish i could spend every hour, minute, second of my life with you.
To be burried in your arms.
To sleep soundly next to you.
Just to see your smile everyday. ♥
Take care off your leg & recover soon okay honey?
Then we can go out again and have fun ♥

& another thing sayang
baby thinks your simply
wonderful.

Thank you sayang for being here,
to teach me things that no one
would teach me.
To make me understand,
what i dont bother to understand.
To make me speak up
when i hide my feelings inside
but most of all,
Thank you syg for making me
love you like i loved no boy before. ♥

I ♥ you Ahmad Fazli
I really do.

Nikita
xoxoxo

sonny.

2007-09-02T00:06:00.000+08:00

Most of you know that i've had this blog in a long time.
Infact this blog contains almost 3 to 4 yrs of my life in it.
Online blogging doest seem much to some,
but it plays a special part of my life
as a read back to remember the sweet & bitter times.
Today while on the way to my mum's house.
i was thinking of what to post in my blog today.
Then it occured to me.
why use the name and the girl still waited
i guess i finally came to realise.
that all my life,
since young till now.
I've been waiting for something to happen.
i dont know what just yet,
but i sure know its something big.
I realised throughout 3-4yrs ive been waiting
for something called
love
& you've shown me everyside of love.
You've made me grown,
taught me not to live in a fantasy life
where i think love is so sureal.
and i appreciate it all,
but what happens when your gone.
who'll be here to teach me that i can make it
on my own. once your gone i cant.
your an addiction i just cant let go.

Nikita
xoxoxo

kai.

2007-08-31T18:36:00.000+08:00

i just dont know what to think of this anymore.
i just wish i could rewind back to the nineteenth.
i had so much faith in you & i thought that maybe
paitence would do the trick.
3yrs you said,
but paitence has a funny
way of making people realise the whole truth.
why? why do this to me. You know very well
i rely on friends like you.
I finally understood everything this week.
you were probably just using me.
this kindda sucks to be frank.
oh well. At least i can now move on.
knowing that maybe my love was meant for much
more special people in my life.
Like the one boy i truely love with my whole heart,
best school budies,
and the one best friend that i can always
trust and know is loyal to her friends ♥

If your wondering if i still like you my dear friend.
the answer is No.
I dont. & im sorry but this something i can never forget.
i'll try though.

Nikita
xoxoxo

FFAF

2007-08-30T16:55:00.000+08:00

FUNERAL FOR A FRIEND ♥

Hi! I'm Nikita from LAMC PRODCUTIONS street team.
The street team is pretty new and im proud to say im the youngest member in it ANYWAY,

Most of you might have already heard that Funeral For A Friend is coming to singapore On the 8th of SEPTEMBER 2007 at the GLASS PAVILION Far East Square. Opening Bands for that night such as ASTRONINJA, CARACAL & A VACANT AFFAIR would be opening for this Rock Uk band.

If you've Never heard of this band before

shame on you!! Well, let me introduce more stuff on this band for you.

By the way, if you do happen to go for their concert please put in a good name for me (Nikita streetteam member of Lamc productions) just say my name to the ticket counter at far east square or any booth near the door. I'd be helping out on that day so see you kids on that night. If not it'd be nice if you guys can go to this website www.myspace.com/lamcproductions and say you've got more information about the ffaf concert from Nikita Thanks!

so, some of you have been asking me.
What happens when i say your name at the ticketing booth?
Do i get free tickets? The answer is No
sorry to dissapoint you. Here's the deal. I depend alot on friends like you
Why?
Because friends like you who support me in being in Lamc's street team can keep me up & running in this street team. This is why i depend alot on friends like you (:
so help me help you
find out more about concerts and details of the concert and if you'd like
go the LAMC website and request for your favourite bands!
Remember the more u request the more the owner would take notice of the demand. ♥

Funeral for a friend is a 5 peice band consiting of Kris Coombs-Roberts (guitarist) , (drummer & vocals) Ryan Richard,Matt Davies(vocals, lead guitar) ,Gareth Davies (base, vocals) & Darren Smith(guitarist) from Uk. They've got three ablums out so far. One called Casually Dressed and Deep in Conversation, the other called Hours & the latest album Tales dont tell themselves.

The Band's top 3 singles from the past two albums would be: Juneau, she drove me to daytime television (both singles from the album casually dressed & deep in conversation), my personal favourite streetcar (Hours).

Enough being said i have to say the Funeral For A Friend concert is going to be pretty kickass so dont miss out on the fun on the 8th of september, glasspavilion Far east square. Doors open at 5.30PM. so dont be late!

If your planning to buy concert tickets now they are going for $85 dollars TILL 7TH SEPTEMBER!!!
(ps, if u show your samsung hp's to sistic you get a discount on your ticket) If you plan to buy at the door tickets would be sold for $95 dollars.
Remember it'd be nice if you can put in a good word for me (NIKITA, Street team member)

Thank you!

Nikita
xoxoxo

fuck.

2007-08-28T15:44:00.000+08:00

My thoughts at the moment
are very contradicting.
I'd go on & on about how nice
something was but be so worked up
and fustrated and confussed and a
whole lot of other emotions when
something goes very fishy.
I dont like this feeling at all.
have to trust my gut instict.
but right now i feel as though my guts
are all sqished up and not responding
to me when i need them the most. rawr.
i just cant wait for it to all end.
i need my social life back badly.
& i just wanna hang around and not give a
fuck in the world.

2007-08-26T23:12:00.000+08:00

Im feeling guilty now,
how could i have been so selfish
& self centered.
Its now all coming back to me
& i finally understand.
Im glad we meet today to talk things out.
i wish i could do more to help you out.
but no matter what happens im here.
& dont worry, you've taught me so much
i know i say im not strong. but when the time comes
when i need to be strong i will, just give me time.
but thank you i know your doing this for the best for the both of us.
It makes sense now what youve been doing.
i wish you told me earlier though but its never too late (:
xoxoxo

one last thing. i dont need anyone in my life now
except certain friends, my core family (i dont need other external family members to look down on MY core family.
i know i quarrel with my father alot but i do love him he care's it just takes time to understand him but i will never agree on your methods even though your all rich & well off & smarter..) and last of all him. iloveyou. ♥
things happen for a reason. it depends on how we respond to the situation. if things dont work out base on study
i'll just admit the truth that i didt study hard enough. im honest i wouldt blame anyone for MY mistakes. thats me nikita.

Nikita
xoxoxo

nlevels

2007-08-23T19:02:00.000+08:00

Its finally thursday,
& time is definatly not by my side.
Ive got heeps of work & studying to finish up
and yet i get so easily distracted by
this man made box.
Argh what makes this damn man made box
so ammusing that i have to go and stare at
its damn screen everyday.
fustrating indeed.
hmm, i've also noticed that
ive gone back to being my negative self.
This is bad. expacially at this critical time.
I have to start motivating myself again,
it cant be that hard can it?
N levels..
the thing sounds pretty harmless but boy
does it do real harm to the one who'd miss judge it.
& Im not gonna take any chances, but dang
am i LAZY
i have to admit.
i am pretty god damn lazy.
must change
must improve
must do well.
i just must must must! :l
well, at least for my mother who's
gone through so much for me & my brother ♥
Oh well onto better & more postive things.
I'm meeting him this sunday! *shrieks in sheer joy*
I've missed that boy terribly.
i want him by my side in my arms,
just to see that smile once more.
its been 2 weeks but it definatly felt longer then that.
I miss you honey and i cant wait for sunday.
Oh & i might be getting my hair cut on sunday
to see if it suits me for raya! :D
if it doest at least ive got a
month before it grows back. (:
oh joy. i'm actually pretty
afraid but the earlier the better.
Here's a picture on how i hope it'd look like:

Okay i gotta go now. i need to force myself
to continue studying or im gonna be left far behind.

Nikita
xoxoxo

today

2007-08-21T21:13:00.000+08:00

only god knows what i'd do without you says: (9:12:07 PM)
i love u
Nikita love's sweetcheeks. says: (9:12:14 PM)
i love you too

Thats all i needed to hear. (:

Nikita
xoxoxo

emoing.

2007-08-20T17:01:00.000+08:00

before i continue this post is not emo.

people say that good things come to people who wait.
it sounds like something easy to achieve,
but i know it ist.
it takes time, willpower and a whole lot of gut.
its hard to be the only one who knows.
and i admit, it gets a little painful as time goes by.
we can only keep this between us,
cause yesterday meant everything to me,
even if it was for a little while.
Ive never shared what ive shared to anyone before.
ignorence is all that we can do.
& i hope you'll be there for me
cause i really need you.
i'm afraid of being alone.
i really truely am.

Nikita
xoxoxo

PROMOTE

2007-08-16T14:13:00.000+08:00

Im helping Auji promote his upcoming gig
and sell tickets so anyone interested
contact nikita on myspace
www.myspace.com/kikipunkette
or friendster
www.friendster.com/nikibadass

HERE ARE THE DETAILS :

ROCK ON
Date: 25th of August 2007
Time: 11am till 6pm
Place: DXO (near esplanade)

AUJI'S BAND PLAYING AT : 5.30PM *go its good* ;]

TICKETS ORIGINALLY SOLD AT TWELEVE
BUT SINCE YOUR PEOPLE ARE SO GOREgeous
IVE DECIDED TO MAKE IT TEN BUCKS.
;) anyone interested contact A.S.A.P

Nikita
xoxoxo

aftermath

2007-08-15T17:07:00.000+08:00

im feeling very moody today.
no seriously i am.
im stressed to my wits,
i hate exams,
and im not telling anyone about it.
(well not till now)
bahhhhhh.
i think ill go talk to someone
about my problems. anyone care
to council nikita. haha
well, at least im meeting
besties tmr. and at least
i'll have something that can
get my mind out of stuff.
i just shouldt get too involved in it
again

Now time for me to hit the showers
study for my future (yeah right...
and lose 7kg by hari raya. LOL. okay
fine 5kg? o_o
im going insane huahua.
i think im weird.
i get mood swings AFTER periods. wtf.
toodles.

Nikita
xoxoxo

mum

2007-08-10T17:51:00.000+08:00

so todays a fucking boring day.
*yawn*
right anyway i noticed today
that i have suddenly wished for many new things
as you can see my wishlist has grown.
and bianca has been a real help by
teaching me stuff about camera's and photography.
haha. now all i need is a fucking good paying job.
any recomendations?
right i gotta shower now & head over to mum's place
got exams for the following whole week.
so im probably going to be in the hidings and rott at home.
dont bother reaching me.
i probably wouldt answer calls or sms's unless
your someone special
like my bestest buddies
and my super amazing kental boyfriend.
the end.
for now

Nikita
xoxoxo

elmo

2007-08-10T01:20:00.000+08:00

okay today was a little weird,
i woke up at around 12 or 1pm
felt hungry as fuck. i only had lunch like yesterday
went out, missed fireworks
argh.
saw him after like forever and he kept smiling.
im suprised he noticed me. i thought he'd forget how i look like
i dont want to think much though
cause he's hurt me too much before.
I've found someone else who makes me smile
each and every day, makes me laugh whenever im feeling down
and makes me feel like a million dollars each time i am around him.
so just stop being an idiot and trying to make me
fall back for you again. NOT GONNA HAPPEN

Nikita
xoxoxo

outing simpsons

2007-08-09T01:52:00.000+08:00

Today went out with syg cause i didt go
to school. haha :) we went to marina square
went to eat yoshinoya there then saw liling
totally forgot she worked there haha :D
yeah we passed time in yoshi camwhoring
cause we were waiting to watch a movie,
we went to watch the simpsons. hahaha!
that show is seriously spastic to the max sia
cannot stand it but next show me and syg plan to watch
is alone and rush hour 3 woot. :D best babi killer whale.
After that we went to jalan around town
windowshopping :D many clothes i adore.
but the money is a problem. hopefully after my n's i can
work for the things i need and want. :D
after windowshopping me and syg started getting bored
so we too the 65 back to tampines
KIMAK. the bus sejuk siaaa.
serious. i was like chattering my teeth. and syg
just kept on giggling at me bahh evil! :D
but he was sweet enough to lend me his pakcik fazli "PF(paulfrank)" hoodie.
i ♥ you :D
yeah! i had fun today :)
my poor syg has work later today though.
poor fella. i'm going out with nick later today to watch fireworks. :)
and those going for singfest have fun without me you wankers ):
hehe kidding
I LOVE U AHMAD FAZLI :D

this is my favourite ♥

*squint squint* peace yawww

chey step garang only... :P

Fishy fishh fishhh

*muacks* yes i love you my kental king.

Nikita
xoxoxo

i fucking love you!

2007-08-06T17:47:00.000+08:00

Wow i havet blogged in a long time
anyway lots happened this weekend.
went to meet syg on saturday
haha he's super kental sia but he's simply adorable
expacially in macdonalds. BURPING CONTEST.
i still think i won syg. i burpped much louder then you did!
& you know it!
*bluek!* :P

Nick did some hardcore moshing on saturday
i wanted to join but i wore flats.
so we decided to go for last day of baybeats yesterday
it was pretty kick ass. but, non the less.
my heart still remains with gas haus. i guess that place
brought back sweeter memories of friendships then i formed there.
After moshing with nick went to meet syg & mike.
woot syg bought me dinner awww. what a sweetheart.
care for his brutal girlfriend so much I LOVE YOU! :D
yeah anyway on the way home syg decided to be playful
and kept on pushing me whenever i tried to walk straight.
kentalans {: haha! anyway we might be going out on wednesday
gonna see the cat exabition.
woot cute cats cant wait. :]
Anyway i gtg now need to study for english prelims tomorrow
Enjoy the pictures yawww! ♥

step one!

step two! (awww your such a sweetheart)

oi..let me eat in peace lah sia. :{

mummykins & daughter! :D we look alike kan?

credits : alex!

in arab street doing baju raye with my real mum :D

my shoes are really filthy from all the moshing :D but he still loves me despite me being stinky woot.

i love this photo of him :D

Bodyguard baru :D my honey's got muscles baby! ;] oh & dont u think he looks like the lead singer from bring me the horizon? fuck hot.

Compare the lead singer to my baby alike kan? :D

Nikita
xoxoxo

thursdayyy

2007-08-02T16:06:00.000+08:00

hello, its thursday yesssssss
one more day till friday
two more days till baybeats & perhaps outing with sweetcheeks
five more days till prelims
six more days till nicholas's birthday.
six & a half more days till my my 5 day holiday.
wow. Interesting Aug lined up for me.
*screams in my little voice* eight months! eight month! ^_^
i know i said i dont celebrate anniversaries till its a year but
cant a girl rejoyce for all the sweet love that she's been receiving?
I just love that boy.

Anyway guess what,
im getting mood swings
NOoOoOoOoOo!!! (okay had to create an effect there)

must be the time of the month
damn.
heh. i'm trying to control it though,
& i'm proud to say im doing a pretty good job.
Blogging with pipping hot green tea is the life.
i otta do this everyday. oh yeah plus study
of corse how could i have missed out studying
*rolls my eyes pathetically in disgust *

So he finally topped up his prepaid (:
hurra hehe yesterday i had a super lame conversation
with him on the phone before he went out.
Apparently i found out he really really enjoys lame jokes! hehe
I mean i know everyone likes jokes but he likes those really lame ones. ahahaha.
I still think he's kental. and nothing can change that.
oh & NO my kental king i am not your lame gundu head aunty.

I love you honey!

schools boring, but at least there's gossip to go around.
yeah you could say that im a gossip folk.
but seriously which one of you ist? honestly now.
look deeeep deeeeeep deeeeeeeep inside your heart.
now...lets see who's lying & being a hypocrite. heheh.
oh & i wanted to scream at her & maybe just pull all her vital organs out today grrr.

but oh well. Nikita can tahan.
Let her say whatever she wanna say about me
but i have one small request,
dont act as though you like me infront of me,
but once i have my back turned you say nasty
things and forget that i too am human.

Anyway im going off now.
i wanna find something to munch on then maybe
hit the books if im not that bored. toodles! ♥

Nikita
xoxoxo

pain.

2007-07-30T17:35:00.000+08:00

Made muffins today.
they looked weird,
but tasted pretty good. oh well,
Im missing my baby so fucking much.
roar, but at least now im doing everything
i promised that i would do
& putting in my all for him.
He's the reason why i wanna continue.
I just hope i make him proud of me.
cause i sure am proud of him.
Somethings wrong with my inner organs.
Im not sure what. but it gets harder to breath
at night and it really hurts. oh well.
I guess another trip to the doctor?
somethings so not right with me but i just
cant figure out what.
(ps, im not emo my internal organs are really hurting me.)

Nikita
xoxoxo

mike ns 15oct.

2007-07-29T22:59:00.000+08:00

On saturday went to jb with family
got some new stuff but im particularly happy
with the new pair of mary jane's that i bought
they are so comfy! :D
oh & got to have yummy yummy dunkin dounuts.
best [:

Anyway ive been missing my honey so badly
and today he was online cause he was at zul's house.
im so happy hehe its cute talking to him online
feels like a long distance relationship cute cute.
but i cant wait till we meet.
feels like forever despite we meeting on thursday.
maybe cause we dont sms or something but that ist a problem.
just missing him trucklots hehe.
oh & yes i shall quote him while we were onlining.
& he said "lets get mushy" :D aww.
i just melted when he said that grrr. i miss that amazing boy.

Today meet nick & syikin random for makan & studies.
best best i studied for enzymes already for bio test yey.
tmr. i seriously need hardcore studying.
only 9 days. wow.
9 days...wow...
& omg

bad news mike going to NS 15 october. OMGGGG.
mike & i must have one majour birthday bash before he goes sia.
omg one by one they all going NS. SEDIH NYEEEEE. :x
anyway here are pictures

every breath you take

2007-07-27T14:51:00.000+08:00

Todays post is gonna be pretty long & boring
but if your interested go ahead & read.
if not i suggest you move to someone else's blog
oh & yes another thing i have to clarrify,
my blog is about my personal life.
If you dont like what i post
& feel as though i'm showing off
about my friends family life and boyfriend
guess what. Firstly your right,
i DO enjoy showing off how happy
i am with my life
unlike you sad pathetic rich emo kids.
secondly, if you dont enjoy reading my daily rants
simple. just dont read it. seeesh is it that hard?

Yesterday, after school went out to meet sayang
went to go look for his laptop
we saw a few good ones &
he's gonna get it by next month.
i cant wait!!
Cause then i can chat with him
& give him lame comments
to sattisfy my boy :D

After looking at laptops we took 65 back to tampines
& went to buy food from the pasar malam,
sedap lurhs!! Thanks syg for introducing me
these foods because im such a kental girl
& wouldt try new food ahahah! {:
we decided to go to the airport to eat there since
its been a while since we went there.
It was nice but i kept on sneezing
nonstop! omg i had a really bad cold luh ):
syg didt mind me sneezing but i could tell
that many other people were really annoyed. oh well :D

we wanted to use my laptop at changi mac's but it didt work
dammit dammit. so we headed back to tampines mac's to use (: huahua
kentalans. After that he sent me home.
I hate goodbyes but i love how he says goodbye to me
its somehow comforting its like that smile
that makes me know that it wouldt be long till we meet
but i really did want to spend more time with him
roar he's my addiction luh. Oh well i cant wait till we meet again. ♥

Tomorrow im going JB with family just remembered.
hopefully can get new stuff there (:
NEW BLOG SONG :D its old but oh heck
its sweet & it reminds me of him & his sweet love.
oh & i hope i would stop sneezing soon
its really bugging me roar! ):
I LOVE U SAYANG! ♥
*muacks*

i never taught we'd last this long but it seems to me that boy maybe we were made for each other

Nikita
xoxoxo

STUDIES!

2007-07-23T17:54:00.000+08:00

Today on the way to school,
i felt really tired and weak
for some apparent reason.
shit.
i need to start eating right.seriously
anyway time passes by so quickly &
now i kindda realise that ive got less
then 2 weeks till prelims
Great.
I am so not ready!
Some one give me some sort of motivation!
Or at least some tips on how you get started on studying
cause i get stuck & blur and then
start to stone when i eventually
do want to study! grrr! :[
this is fustrating ):
ANYWAY. nikita wants a new myspace banner. HAHA
anyone willing to do for nikita while they are bored?
I love nick cause she helped me out with my new layout & i think its hella
perfect! :D thanks nick nick! :D
anyway im gonna shower & force myself to study
i need it badly if i want to have a good christmas. BAH!

this is death saying hello to me if i fail my Nlevels! HAHA :D
dont steal my icons! grrr. ]:

Nikita
xoxoxo

fireworks!

2007-07-22T21:16:00.000+08:00

On friday i had my fingers crossed
the whole day that i would get the chance
to talk things out with him.
I prayed in my mind that god would
work something out for me.
& he did.
cause before i slept he sent me
a hopeful sms asking me if there was
any chance of us talking,
in my heart i cried a loud cheer knowing
that this was my chance.
The next day went perfectly well,
he gave me that smile that went
lost for a while and it made my
whole day better. he held me tight &
told me it'd be alright and i knew deep inside
i had to hold on cause i knew other guys wouldt
be as fine as this boy and if i had lost him
it wouldt even matter anymore.
This girl was finally giving her geniune smile
and that boy was finally giving his too.
At the end the fireworks made it a whole lot
extra special (:
& i have someone to thank for if not
this wouldt have even happened.
i love you ahmad fazli & i dont give a damn
about what people say anymore. cause its just
me & you boy. no one else. (:
saya cinta pada kamu!

Nikita
xoxoxo

poet.

2007-07-19T19:37:00.000+08:00

yesterday after the long dreaded phone conversation
i felt so crushed. so helpless.
what could i have done to make the pain less painful?
I know it had hurt him more then it had hurt me.
After all that he's been going through.
I felt like i wast good enough for him.
that maybe what everyone had said was true.
i felt so weak & heartbroken
and soon i fell into a short yet deep sleep
when i woke, i could still feel his pain in my heart
it was as though i could read his every trace of though
despite him not being next to me.
i cried in the shower as the tears ran wild
along with the purity of the tap water.
in school i stayed in silence i tried
to smile for a few but only knew that deep inside
i was bruised.
i wanted to go home as quickly as i could. hide myself probably
from this truth. but no matter how much i hid under my blanket.
the screams of how we we're no match filled my heart with insanity.
i took a moment to write my confidence down on paper.
knowing each line that i wrote seemed to be harder.
in that paper i told myself i had to be strong.
for myself. for you. for our love to carry on.
i told myself to stay positive. this was just a phase.
like any couple would have been in.
Nearing the end of that powerful peice of paper
i had writen in bold letters.
i would never give up on our love,
for anyone's happiness for that matter.
I hate to see you beat yourself so much about this.
it kills me to see you sad and think your not good enough for me.
you know your worth everything to me.
and i can now proudly say that
I dont care what anyone else would say.
I love you and thats all that would remain.

Nikita
xoxoxo

Dont matter

2007-07-18T17:36:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to meet syg
to lepak for a while. it was nice
just sitting down and talking about
random stuff about life, about love
about mostly anything to everything.
I love how it feels like to stare into
his eyes and just fall madly in love
with him all over again.
I love you so much syg.
Anyway, i told mummy today.
on how old he truely really is.
Like most parents. she jumped to
conclusion made assumptions.
and became a typical sterotype.
but after much persuasion,
she decided to give me & sonny a chance.
provided. she had a long talk with him.
this is going to be interesting.
And i miss him lots now
but syg if you do read this.
just remember what i said.

if i have to give up on us it would't be
for anyone it'd be for the happines
of the both of us. I wouldt want to give up
on anything as perfect as this. This would sound
crazy to a few. but boy. you made my heart grew
by caring for my delicate heart like it was yours too.
Thank you for loving me the way you do.

Nikita
xoxoxo

harry potter

2007-07-17T15:17:00.000+08:00

On sunday i went out with syg to watch harry potter
at cathay :D it was niceeee but we missed the biggining cause
we were fashionably late :P hehe.
Anyway i still prefered the previous show. this one's
okay not as bad as i thought it'd be i somehow wished
the kiss for harry & chowchang was much more...exciting?
haha anyway yesterday went random shopping with maria
tried to cheer her up oh well at least we ate subway :D
COOKIE. :D yeah. subway cookies are way nicer then
famous amos.
Today im going airport with syg to lepak.
:D woooot. gonna show now byee ♥

ps, 3 weeks & a half till prelims. omfg.
Nikita
xoxoxo

ginicologist

2007-07-12T14:51:00.000+08:00

okay, today i went home early from school
apparently i have something wrong with my
cramps thingy (its a girl thing)
so yeah mummy fetched me from school,
so tmr ive got an appointment at GH
to meet mummy's gainicologist.
so yeahh, thats gonna be my friday night.
Anyway, i've been trying to think positivly.
Its working a little, needs alot of work still
though. I hope i do work this out
on my own
oh & that call meant so much to me
hehe {: i love you so so so much sweetcheeks
as long as we're happy i'll hold on for life.

New blog song. hear it. it cheers you up real fast
maybe its the whistling. its cute :D
oh and i have decided to avoide
a) sappy sad songs
b) emo songs
c) hardcore songs
for a while. just a while till i get my mood swing thing cleared.
i kindda notice my mood changes real quick when i listen to music.
okay wow. i didt know that
& here are photo's from tuesday enjoy! :D

Nikita
xoxoxo

myheartaches

2007-07-11T17:12:00.000+08:00

despite the long silence
the warmth of your body
it melts my heart
i keep remenising of the past,
my icey fears is tears us apart
maybe i'm to be blamed
for my insanity
its a fight between
machinery and a human being
its possible yes dearie.

hahaha okay thats lame. nikita
emoing lah shut up. but im not emo blah. :D
Okay, i'm starting to think
i am becoming a little whiney
and saddist this whole month.
This whining and negative thinking
must stop. Before its too late.

Nikita
xoxoxo

tahan

2007-07-09T18:07:00.000+08:00

Today sucks. hahah
i'll go straight to the point.
I hate her i hate her i hate her.
thank you ♥
oh yes. imy alot.
it breaks my heart
to see me this way when i know
i shouldt be :l
its only gonna be another 3 months.
tahan nikita.
tahan...

Nikita
xoxoxo

love

2007-07-08T20:04:00.000+08:00

I'm starting to be real afraid
of the future lately.
It could just be my mood swings
getting the best of me but i can
never shake the feeling off me.
I keep thinking its the end.
but you're always there to
asure me its not.
so whats keeping these thoughts
running wildly in my mind?
maybe its just me.
haha i dont know.
i'd rather not think too much about it
sigh, anyway i got myself a new phone
with kak liza, abang wan, nenek & nicholas :)
here's the beauty

Nikita
xoxoxo

summerlove.

2007-07-06T16:27:00.000+08:00

Have you ever had that feeling,
where you see a picture with you & your friends innit
then you start wondering where they've all gone?
cause you've missed them dearly.
& then you see a new picture of them.
except this time.
your not innit.
Have you ever felt that way?
well i am feeling that weird feeling today.
It aint just me. I know a few others feel the same way too
but, Oh well, thats life i suppose.
they always say they'll be there no matter
how much shit you'll be in
cause they dont believe in the saying
"friends come and friends go"
but i'm starting to believe in that little phrase.
Thanks for the memories you guys.
but frankly speaking,
its all falling apart & its sad.
Real sad. I miss you guys badly.

Nikita
xoxoxo

zahia died

2007-07-03T15:00:00.000+08:00

Woah i've had a pretty long weekend.
On Friday after school went out with sayang
to get his PS2
(apparently his newest gf.. oh no.) kidding :D

He's really happy with it, I cant wait to play it too
muwahahar ^_^ I'm so gonna win you lah syg.
After we makan already we decided to go
Bedok to Jalan-Jalan & find games for his PS2.
We ended up walking around circles
& eventually not getting the games since it was late
& most of the shops were closed.
Syg then wanted to see his old neighbourhood
so we went venturing around bedok lol! :}
It was nice having late night walks with him :D
oh & he's simply adorable when he eats snacks like a small kid. omg
he's my special little boy sia. i ♥ him

On saturday went to nick's place to watch dvd's with syikin
had fun girls day in :D i miss those girls badly ♥
with school starting & prelims coming soon. things dont look
too good with social life. }: so i'm saying good bye to social life ♥

On sunday went out with family.
It kindda sucked in the beggining was alright at the end
i guess? :/

Yesterday went out with sayang to watch transformers.
wah kimak! that show is seriously nice sia :D
i think it has to be the best summer movie i've watched.
Its so cute to see sayang all excited for transformers.

BUMBLE BEE♥ my favourite
oh & he looked H.O.T yesterday. barh.
i simply melted
for that silly monkey all over again.
i love you sugar.
after watching transformers we decided
to kill time by playing pool at lucky plaza.
since i've been well known to suck
at pool, syg had to teach me (: hehe
i think i was a lousy student
but syg was a good teacher.
never gave up on me hehe!
Anyway i gtg now my little brother wanna
use the computer hehe! <3
take care people!

Nikita
xoxoxo

transformers.

2007-06-28T15:48:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went out with syg at first it was okay
but things got a little messy after the conversation with my mum,
once it got all settled the trip back home was the perfect remedy
after all's that been happening.
Anyway, baby is sorry about yesterday sweets
it was clearly all my fault. i'm just not very good
with moodswings (: i'll promise you i'll change
& learn to handle my moodswings better next time
anyway i hope you liked the letter & the cookie & the bear
it was very random but i felt like it (:

♥ i love you sweetcheeks.
anyway one more day till the weekend is here
and monday is movie date with syg! WOOT.
transformers. :] yeahhh ♥ hehe

Nikita
xoxoxo

emoing.

2007-06-26T17:54:00.000+08:00

I miss my mum
I miss my fun & unforgetable holidays
most of all, i miss my sweetcheeks ♥

i so hate school, 7 weeks to prelims. lets get it over & done with already..

Nikita
xoxoxo

settling issues.

2007-06-24T22:54:00.000+08:00

Apparently ive got new enemy's among me
okay, i can handle this on my own
you wanna get sacarstic with me go
right ahead, i believe in karma & i know i aint do
shit to you so just back off bitches & hoes.

OH, it must be so hard living in a perfect family.
Living with two parents who are still happy married
& having most things at the snap of your fingers
its such a tiring thing to get through everyday aint it?

I cant stand bitches like you girls.
You look at me differently & why?
is it because oh well, lets see...
1) My parents are divorced (oh & maybe the fact that you bitches know that i hang out
with my friends more cause you know i find love through friends?)
2) I'm in normal acedemic & you girls are in express & special stream (oh wow guess who's not only rich but brainy too.)
3) The group of friends i hang out with are mostly malays & you girls being oh typical steriotype thinkers, would immediatly judge them to be MATS & MINAHS. oh yeah & me hanging out with them would automatically put me in the minah category.
4) I appreciate the different side of life then what you girls would probably have never seen in your whole teenage life
5) oh & yeah lots not forget the infamous peircings i got that made almost (half of the entire world think) i've changed for the worse
6) Last of all my bf. You bitches are probably just plain jealous that i've got an ace boyfriend. I wouldt say he's perfect But thats what makes him perfect. His imperfections that make me realise he is too human. (boys have feelings too bitches. yess, they aint robots dont think for a minute that every relationship that goes wrong in you're girl's life has to be fully blamed by boys. You girls can be a real pain in the butt from time to time)

Now that i've got that all settled.
I've got school tomorrow so i'd just like to say
the holidays has been real ace cause my best friends, the gang, my ace boyfriend has been
there to support me throughout this whole month :D
you guys are simply the best BIG HUG :]

ps, mummy! your coming home tomorrow! :') i'm glad ive missed you dearly.
good night people

Nikita
xoxoxo

stayoveratmummy'shouse

2007-06-22T17:44:00.000+08:00

syg, thank you so much for this week.
Thank you for being there to comfort me in this crucial
part of my life. I know you have been busy
& tired with the wedding, work & your chalet.
But i'm glad its all over i hope you get enough rest
to start the next month which is coming soon.
I'd just like everyone to know that i am
truely madly in love with
AHMAD FAZLI and my heart
will only beat this strong for this special boy!
*muacks muacks*
thank you oh yeah and here are new pictures <3

Nikita
xXxOoXoXoOoX
(little kiss, big kiss, little kiss, big hug, little hug,big kiss, little hug,big kiss, little hug, big hug, little hug, big kiss ♥)

runaway love

2007-06-20T11:31:00.000+08:00

wow, im experiencing a new emotion
I've never felt before.
imissmymumsomuch &
ihateihateiseriouslyhatemydad
Why cant he just accept me as who i am.
Why cant he just understand that i am partially malay too.
Why cant he just grow up and grow out from the divorce that took back 6yrs back.
Everyone has moved on. Why cant you?
and i hate it when you talk about mummy or my nenek. even though your my dad you have no rights
to talk dirt behind their back. i will not tolerate any of this anymore. you have gone just abit way too far this time.

Anyway people dont call my house this whole week.
I dont think i'm going to be there.
If you cant reach me on my hp call my mum's house.
(64435043) i'll be staying there before school starts i think

Nikita
xoxoxo

brokeback video

2007-06-18T14:17:00.000+08:00

yesterday i went for syg's brother's wedding
it was quite interesting (:but the food is ace :D
very yummy indeed and the couple looked
happy on their wedding day thats good (: hehe
anyway today i plan to go out with syikin & nick
to vivo cause its seriously boring & i think
i got alot of sleep hehe! :D
anyway here's the vide
for brokeback mountain during the chalet :P
enjoy! hehe!

15 june

Add to My Profile | More Videos

Nikita
xoxoxo

pictures

2007-06-17T08:24:00.000+08:00

PICTURES (from b'day chalet) ♥

daddy being high on LG.

Faz stop posing siaaa :D but this is a nice picture of him though haha!

syg why never masak for me! haha! kidding (: smokey eyes hahaw!

what am i doing arh..? haha..? hmm

brokeback mountain part 1

brokeback mountain part 2

brokeback mountain part 3

my oh so ever spastic dad FIDOOO. :D

an ever gay picture of me & syg (: i look stttooopid.

Thats all for now folks! i'll try getting the video's for
brokeback mountain activities soon if i can ;D
see you peeps ♥
Nikita
xoxoxo

chalet!

2007-06-16T22:41:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to ton at the B'day chalet
at changi i have to admit that place
was pretty huge & kick ass for a party only
problem is that its seriously freky.
expacially since its just behind old changi hospital.
hollyyy. Anyway, i just wanna wish
syg & nick happy b'day once again
hope the both of you had fun (: ♥
love you both the most special people in my life.

Anyway, i just remembered
that ive got a wedding to attend tomorrow
& the only pair of heals that matches
what im wearing tmr is fucking high
& i have trouble walking innit.
I am so screwed.
Oh yeah & i dont have a bag to bring tmr.
so yeahh i am seriously screwed.

I WANNA APOLOGISE TO SAW.
im sry i didt go for your bike/skate comp tdy! )):
i was seriously tired from the chalet do forgive me :D <3
oh & yes new profile song i digggg this one so much :D

will upload pictures & videos from chalet a.s.a.p
take care kiddos

Nikita
xoxoxo

kaipart2

2007-06-14T17:23:00.000+08:00

Nikita has bad bad bad flue & sore throught
today..this sucks i seriously want to get better
by tomorrow.. If not i'll be sad..
and my whole vision of tmr's party would just go down
the drain ):
oh well im gonna bath & get some rest
wish me luck that i get better (:

ps, Stop trying to be nice to me when your alone
but act big & tough when your with your friends & new gf.
I'm not dumb. I told you we're over.

Nikita
xoxoxo

Baked cake!

2007-06-14T00:16:00.000+08:00

Today went to syikins house
to get the last presents done
sykins house nice siaa :D
besarrr & super cute looks so indie. Lol
& her cat omgzz. cute giler babi! :D
after that went to penin to get her
present wahh mahal tapi tak pe (:
i just want everyone to be happy this friday
thats my main aim luh hehe.

Anyway besok i'm going to meet elmi to
celebrate his birthday omg sia. this whole week
aku keluar. tsk tsk. (: oh well
Anyway see you peeps this friday
nikita TAK LEH TAHAN! :D

nikita
xoxoxo

birthday

2007-06-12T00:34:00.000+08:00

Today was seriously a nice chill out day,
sitting at the padang with real white chairs is
actually really fun. seriously
hawhaw jealous?
you otta be. ;D

Anyway i think i have becomed some
nigga shitzay minah idiot. omfg
after not hanging out with the guys for so long
i have realised my music taste has gone haywired. :P
Oh well, i still think good music should be appreciated even
if its techno or reggaenation or rap right nick? :D
lol.

Oh yes i have managed to find all the money in my house
and the money in my turtle bank and its like $80 all together
i plan to buy him another present
cause the present i got him looks so pathetic on its own
AHAHA. i'm such a wanker. i suck at getting
guys presents omg.
anyway i miss him alot omg.
this is bad. the less i meet him
the more i yearn for him bah.
i hate not meeting him
bahhh its been 3 weeeeeekssssss 3 WEEEEEKSSSSS
Let me enfersize it for you people

THREE WEEKS, TIGA MINGGU, SAN GE XIN QI
I miss you very much lah syg ):

oh & another thing i need to enfersize to you people...

MY MYSPACE NOT WORKING. SO IS MY PHOTOBUCKET...ASAL BOLEH MACAM INI?

heh. okay imma go sleep nightnight nigga shitzays.
Nikita
xoxoxox

imissmysyg

2007-06-11T01:56:00.000+08:00

I MISS YOU SAYANG!
okay i'm missing my honey very badly
the both of us have been very busy lately &
havet found the time to meet each other
i'm just glad i meet him that day after 2 weeks
it was the perfect remedy (:
baby just cant wait for this friday
for nicks & syg's birthday chalet
i think baby's more excited then you
two luhs :D hehe anyway my syg
is asleep now he's such a lazy pigg :P
whole day lah tidor. tsk tsk ((:
nvmm i wish him good nights rest
i'm gonna hit the sack soon too hehe.
night peeps! oh & lambak was fun *thumbs up*
i miss my nenek & aunty & cousins badly now
byebye for now!

Nikita
xoxoxo

hihi (:

2007-05-23T17:35:00.000+08:00

hi friends sorry i havet been blogging
for so long. been lazy haha (:
anyway things are going alright for me i suppose
on sunday i went for the guys first gig
it was seriously very kick ass i ♥ it

On Monday i went out almost the whole day with syg
its nice to spend time with him all by myself like before (:
its nice to be selfish once in a while haha i truely love you sweetcheeks
your simply amazing.
oh & thank you for the random movie. :D i loved it

On tuesday had fnn cooking
it was okay i guess.
after that went to meet the guys
and stuff its funny to see daddy all hyper sometimes :D makes me
feel gay. anyway, syg..thank you for always being here for me
i'm sorry about yesterday i just appreciate you being there for me. the fact that
your there to lend me your shoulder to cry on makes me realise how lucky i am to have found you.

xxxo
Nikita

hihi

2007-05-15T17:26:00.000+08:00

current addictions:

Drinks: Green Tea
Foods: No addictions just alot of cravings
Songs: Oh Mandy- The Spinto Band
Friends: Maria, Evan, Nick, Syikin, The Gang
Loves: My boo ♥
Hangouts: Pasir Ris Downtown
Magazines: Kerrang
Colours: Black & Red
Animals: Unicorns (its an animal alright..!)
Website: Myspace
Quote: i dont remember :l

Okay im done with that now.
hmm blame it on zeze! *points fingerrr towards her*
she made me do it ]]:
huahua i didt mind though! I WAS BOREEED.
anyway one more god damn paper WOOOHOOO.
& im free free freeee ♥
miss u all.

woooot

2007-05-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

omg ive been seriously busy & sorry i havet updated stuff
but everything is as usual & nikita is OK :D

people this is the infomation for the gig this coming sunday

thank you. ♥
(ps, im not a fucking groupie you fucking shitholes.)

anyway,
I HAVE FOUND EVERYONE IN MY LIFE ALREADY
I HAVE GREAT FRIENDS
I HAVE A GREAT FAMILY
AND I HAVE THE BEST KICK ASS BOYFRIEND
AND I DONT NEED ANY THING ELSE IN THIS WORLD.

(but making new friends are fine) ahahaa
new song yeayyy its an old rnb song but heck. its nice. *thumbs up*
good luck class for the last 2 days of exams lets do our best!

hhhha

2007-05-04T17:43:00.000+08:00

I LOVE MY BABY BOY :D ♥
oh & i made you something my love!
anyway i need to tell someone something
im sorry but i have finally realised i cant be friends with you
even no matter how much i wanted to.
i realise the more i talk to you.
the more piss i become. the more hatred i put in you
i dont want to hate you for nothing
thats why im sorry but im ending it all now
this is where i draw the line between me & you.
i love my baby boy too much. ♥
do take care my friend.
the song once had meaning to me.
but like like the song goes you
were my everything
but i dont feel that way towards you.
OH & dear friends new techno song up :D
this doest make me a GOD DAMN MINAH BTW. [: thanksssssss.
now go suck cock.

iiki

2007-04-23T19:58:00.000+08:00

You dont know how much i dislike you.
I wouldt exactly say i hate you cause there was a time where we had fun together
But im starting to think differently of you now.
and its dissapointing because i know there was a different girl i knew before this whole mess occured.

Your taking so many things away from me one by one and its getting harder
for me to forgive you. You think you can just be our friend for one minute get the guys in the group
to "like" you then expect to remain this way till forever? My darling girl life doest work this way.
Things are starting to unfold slowly about your life.
why lie? ok so you dont like the same music as us but yet you pretend you do why?
i dont know if you do have a band or not. neither do the guys. but seriously
its not like we're not going to be your friend just because you dont listen to the type of music
we listen to you know? We arnt that pussy.
friendship doest work that way you know? friendship is based alot on trust
but your making me lose that trust I once had in you.

I just want to say im not just going to sit here and be gullable and watch you take everything
dear to me one by one. Firstly you lied to me about my friend. you lied to me about stuff and why?
i eventually found out about most of the stuff yesterday. Secondly oh yes the famous unfinished business with
my boyfriend. okay i'm not going to elborate on that because im matured enough to think
if you wanna be "drunk" and do stuff thats your lost of repect for yourself. but seriously..
i just feel like even if your sober and sad about stuff...taking your feelings on another person
who's attached is kindda way of base. i dont blame you of corse neither do i blame my boyfriend.
i just feel like you shouldt just give in. Cause then your just protaying this image of yourself.
which you dont want people to know you as.

Another thing i hope you & him do work stuff over. cause both of you know your true feelings for each other. Yet your both hiding your ego's i'm sorry i have to say this but all these drama all these tears, the cuts, the lies its too Mtv and too Dramatic for me. I'm someone carefree. I cant stand this anymore someone is going to have to tell you sooner or later. If no one is gonna say it. Then well maybe i just should.

Overall. i dont hate you. I just hope you change and understand that life doest really evolve around you.
everyone has their fair share of problems, hatres, denials but at the end of the day the main thing is.
Give respect, take respect.

xxxo
Nikita

sakee!

2007-04-19T15:03:00.000+08:00

woah its been forever since ive last blogged
anyway (: nothing much been happening lately other then last sunday
firstly i'd like to thank alex & sonny baby for surprising madee & me with the surprise
movie haha! (: we thought you boys were so sweet haha! ♥
secondly thank you madee for having the nice chat while waiting for the boys :D
i sincerly thought i was the only one who did't really like ahem. haha!
anyway after madee & alex left, syg went to surprise me yet again with
reservations for sakee sushi.
lerrr syg! *blush* your very sweet tau ke tak kental? :D
haha! i will always thank allah for letting me find you (:
my true gentlemen jackass hero lah you! (^_^)
oh & thank you for the candles smells nice lah! :D seriously smells like chocolates
huahua! ohoh & can i be a jackass and put your cute baby picture on myspace
for the world to see? :D LOL.
anyway tmr's sports carnival. haha not really looking forward to it really.
think its gonna be a real bore...hopefully the school can prove me wrong haha!
okay im gonna take a real nice nap now. bye for now ♥
OHOH & do look out for daisho discreet's gig coming soon in the month of may!
thank you! (click on picture *if link doest work go under my links in blog*)

xxxo,
Nikita

airport

2007-04-11T22:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday was fun,
despite it being totally random,
i had fun i liked it hah.
im not being those typical faggots
but sincerly, i felt like it was perfect.
went to meet the gang at marina square been a while
since ive meet them all (: had fun haha!
faz was being pretty lame as usual wanting to play
the "blinking game" when he kept on sqinting his eyes in the first place
grrr urms iiki's friend came they had drinks yup2 err
what else happened arh.. ahaha! oh yeah bear, joe & sonny gambled with coins
again the ending part was so spastic. cause apparently i kissed sonny's card that made him
win the game woot. im lady luck MUWAHAHA. ((:
errr right...
anyway some pictures from tuesday's date at airport <3

jealousy

2007-04-08T20:25:00.000+08:00

im feeling super stressed now adays,
and the worse part of it all is that it ist
one bit about my studies.
how long am i to hold on to this playful game?
how long will it take for me to realise its too late.
how long will i finally understand all this time that my family cares?
i dont know.
i dont know at all.
im so caught on holding on & letting go at the same time
i feel that im falling too deep into another hole.
another mistake another regrette another lie.
& each time i pick up that call
a sense of happiness fills me up inside
yet deep down inside i know its a lie.
a fucking white lie i tell myself to prevent me from
feeling weak.feeling helpless feeling nothing
& why do i even bother doing this
when at the end of the day i say i love you
but look away in shame.
they say jealousy is the root of all evil.
what they say is true.
but they forgot. i'm part of that evil too.

hmmm

2007-04-05T23:50:00.000+08:00

im afraid of losing him.
i wouldt lie. im right now seriously
in love with him despite it being only for 4 months.
& when i heard that she
the girl that i recently trusted & was a listening ear
for her, was high & did stuff to you
i felt jealous. pretty jealous indeed.
she's pretty. i admit & yeah im worried of her now.
maybe i think too much, but
im going to keep my eye out for her.
your now angry with me why i dont even know why.
i usually hardly know why you usually get angry with me
but im too lazy to ask or fight today.
probably cause you thought i was going out with guys
or something when in actual fact i was out with my school mates.
seriously, how many times do you actually hear me saying im going out with my school friends.
this is like one of those rare moments. and
you probably just ignored my calls when i called you
cause you couldt be bothered who i was out with
or something..maybe thats why your angry with me. cause you probably think
im lying again. cause whenever something goes wrong.
im the liar. im the one in the wrong. im the dumb one
you have no idea how much i wanna cry my eyes out right now
& just scream into your face and ask why is it whenever we have a nice date the
next day is always shit. sigh.. nvm
profile songs for you anyway.

xxo

rheyy rain

2007-03-28T21:38:00.000+08:00

okay i was super sick on tuesday went to the doctors
got my medicine & now im a-o-k. :D
today was boring the day went by pretty fast im glad.
was suppose to go out. but change of plans.
and people started getting moody cause of the weather & stuff.
yerp. so i went home & decided to be gay online.
:) yeah im feeling pretty gay with stephanie now.
she loves her goddess. yey yey. im so happy for her. :D

music survey

2007-03-22T20:26:00.000+08:00

Today school was pretty slack,
so after school went to vivo with maria & audrey
but before we started our window shopping i decided to meet honey
fer a while with the rest of the guys haha :]
audrey's cute. she was pretty scared of them.
i think maria is okay ah... right maria? :D hurhur.
the gang are heading to sentosa to ton bahhh i wanna go to...
but nvm I shall be a good girl & stay home :D
hurhur i quai kia okay?
umm i have a few new pictures. but im tooooo LAZY
to post them up here...
soo... if u wanna see then go to either my friendster or myspace.
its under my links. [:

okay anyway! zea tagged me so i have to do her survey :D hurhur.
btw zea nice meeting you again that day :) been a while

Instructions:
1. Put your music player on shuffle.
2. Press forward for each question.
3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn't make sense. NO CHEATING!
4. Tag 10 people to play this game too.
5. Bold the questions and answers that swack.

How are you feeling today?
Hips dont lie- shakira

Will you get far in life?
cant stop-red hot chilli peppers

How do your friends see you?
milligram smile- from autum to ashes

Will you get married?
temperature-sean paul

What is your best friend's theme song?
give it up to me-sean paul

What is the story of your life?
as i bleed-the agony scene
wah wah so emo arh? :l
errrr. wtf lah.

What was high school like?
clocks- coldplay (mental...) :p

How can you get ahead in life?
aerodynamics- draft punk :D

What is the best thing about your friends?
Modify the pronoucation- The devil wears prada

What is in store for this weekend?
a last fare well- lovehatehero

What song describes you?
The beloved & hatred- caliban
OMG. yeah mannn :)

To describe your grandparents?
the latest plague- from first to last

How is your life going?
Apology- alesana
yeahh i gotta apologise to my mum for not
telling her about my snakebites earlier...sorry mum!

What song will they play at your funeral?
Hit the floor-bullet for my vallentine
(not very appropriate dont cha think :l )

How does the world see you?
my fears have become phobias- as blood runs black
AHAHAHAH :D

Will you have a happy life?
pointed to my heart- i killed the prom queen
err that can either be a good thing or a bad thing for my relationship LOL.

What do your friends really think of you?
You know how i do- taking back sunday
YEAH BABY. :D U GUYS KNOW HOW I DO. CAUSE IM BAD ASS SUCKERS.

Do people secretly lust after you?
Tears dont fall- bullet for my valentine

How can I make myself happy?
spongebob grindpants- the devil wears prada
muwahahaha yeah spongebob makes me happy

Will you ever have children?
Unintended-muse
BWAHAHAHA. but i want kids!

Finally, I'm done. So here's the 10 people I'm gonna tag.
1. Audrey tan
2. Tricia
3. Judy
4. Prince
5. venetia
6. vien
7. kak lin
8. akim
9. helen
10. Kristi

camp & snakebites

2007-03-15T00:18:00.000+08:00

so i just came back not too long ago from camp
it was fun (:
i bonded with new friends such as ashiqin
and old friends such as tia & jannah yeahhh (:
its was fun overall hehe

yesterday went to ton with sonny joe ally nick faz and 3 other girls.
haha :D i got high again woot the feeling damn shioke i swear.
i havet got high in a long time lah (:
haha! nick got super high & her new peircing is damn sexy lahhh ):
nikita jealoussss.
but nvm i finally got my snakebite HURRAAA HURAAA.
but abit senget. soo...i think im gonna take out one side soon
and let it heal... pictures bellow :D
then peirce the other side again another time (:
hehe tomorrow gonna follow nick get her other peircing
& then meeting susu at esplanade woot. havet meet him in a while :D
miss the old gang lah

& last thing (:
i want my honey to know that i love him very much
& i hope he doest think too much about what has happen
cause baby hates seeing you this way. it makes her sad.
i love you too much to see you hurt sweetcheeks.
*hugs* do take care

xxxo
Nikita

FOB

2007-03-04T19:30:00.000+08:00

okay i went to the fob concert
and trust me i fucking hell liked it.
i know i usually prefer hardcore music but seriously the were good
i dont care what other people say about them being mainstream
& stuff i mean you gotta support the band you love despite
them going mainstream. hah! i think only i understood that...

Anyway i just like to thank the boy who found my ezlink card in the mosh pit
& i'd like to thank the other boy who was constantly picking me up
each time i feel down in the moshpit
like to thank fido's friend too for picking me up.
& lastly thank nis (mummy) & fido (daddy) for going to the concert with us. bwahaha
had a whole lot of fun moshing with you guys :D

so i have in totaly of 5 bruises on my arms baik ah Nikita :D
haha i swear the ring of death was 15million times better then gas haus.
i kept beating & pulling the hairs of 12 yr old sluts
who attempt to mosh in their god damn freaking skirts.
i mean get a life u girls are there for boys only
so stop trying to do stuff beyond your standarts. alright?
let the hardcore girls do it. haha!
me & nick were like hardcore trend setters lah.
most of the people didt know how to mosh
it was like me & nick introduced the sledgehammer to
the moshpit then everyone did sledgehammer then
i introduced the windmill move then this other guy was like
EH FUCKING NICE SIA THE WAYS SHE MOSH then he copied me.
bwahahhaa. frankly speaking i seriously only saw me & nick as the hardcore moshing girls
the rest were all like going goo gooo gaaa gaaa over pete.
i mean yes pete is hot but how can one miss out on such fun!?
:DDD
okok i'll shut up
ANYWAY i'm meeting my honey tomorrow
HURRA HURAAAAAA.
I MISS THE KENTAL KING SO MUCH.
grrrr. ((:

i hope all goes well its been a week since ive meet him! :D
i miss him alot ahahaha okay
i gtg now & complete my fnn work.
argh now that sucks.
alright laterrrr <3

iloveyou

2007-03-01T18:00:00.000+08:00

alright its like thursday already whicked.
i just have one more paper then
here i come fall out boy concert
here i come hardcore dancing & moshing
here i come efl camp
here i come class bonding time
here i come one week march holidays
here i come spending time with my friends
here i come snakebite
& lastlt here i come sweetcheeks (:

i'm feeling happy & jolly.

woot.

2007-02-20T22:59:00.000+08:00

I ♥ YOU BABY :D
ahem ahem. (:
i love you very very very much WOOOT.
&& YAY NICK COMING BACK FROM MAK-KAU.
i miss her company
Oh & fido YAY THE SHOES FIT YOU :D
BAIK AH.

welcome to the fightclub

2007-02-13T23:03:00.000+08:00

welcome to the fightclub

i expected better out from you,
i thought you'd be there for me
when i needed you the most.
You act as though ive experience
shit like this everyday of my life.
this is my first
and to tell you the truth
the pain inside hurts me more then
the bruises outside.
looks like once again ive outdone myself.
congratulations nikita, your yet again the fool of the year.

i quote words spoken out of your thoughtless lips
as you breath down my neck
i cant help but bite my tounge & act
as though your right.

-dont bother me, is what you said as you probably felt
as though i was pest. maybe it was jealousy or maybe out of your pure hatred for me
recently. but do i blame you?
i dont blame you. not a bit.
i just wished you were there
cause i definatly didt ever wanted it to
happen in the first place
this indrect fight that
lead us to this pretty little nightmare,
end.

ps, im not emo dumbfucks.
i'm depressed there's a difference look it up in the dictionary
if your that clueless.

<3 :D

2007-02-08T19:55:00.000+08:00

TWO NEW PICTURES ♥

yesterday had a small missunderstanding,
so in school today half the day i was like all moody haha :l
how pathetic haha!
anyway after recess i became mad :D
like maria managed to cheer me up & during geo since everything
was like settled and stuff how incrediably gay
the people at the back were high & horny LOL
i had fun luh (:

so after school went to lepak near the flagpole table there haha
chit-chat, gossip & laugh abit
then school was over woohoo :D

he didt fetch me from school cause we were going orchard so i told him to
fetch me instead at tiong bahru mrt woots (:
yeahh went to CFF. that place is gay. the people are gay
the trainers are gay. everyone is gay
i know u hate this word sweets but they are GAY.
I dont mind gays but these gays were just
really really gay syg.
haha & i was falling alseep
after that went to penin woot (:
he got himself a new shirt for the gig this saturday haha! :D
he's my metalhead & i'm just his bogglehead LOL
he called me gundu head la.
what an ass. hahaha!! Kidding! :)
after that went to tampines and just sat & talked till the grp came
then he sent me home and he went with the group HAHA :D

somehow or another i like long talks (:
& HALLOWEEN BABY! :D
SET AHHH. you be my murderer & i'll be your murdered prom queen ;D
I cant wait for tmr & saturday! ♥
yeye!

♥♥♥

ive met a boy
who doest mind
me being his jackass heroine
cause he himself,
is my jackass hero ♥
ILY xxxo

random

2007-01-31T16:43:00.000+08:00

PICTURES

alex & sonny having a go at the emo wankster fido! :D

from left : bear,mike,faz,joe,aishah,me! :))

this is my nigga shitz. <3

nikita baik ah! after gig [: the moshpit best babi yay

yesterday had a random meeting
with the gang ((:
hahar! very random yet uberly fun (:
fido is just oh so spastic its hilarious
i drank starbucks with nick while attempting to
do my maths. Obviously
i sidetracked countless times
but nick always pulls me back <3
yay thanks for teaching me nickkk :D
oh did a few mini jackass stuns.
AHAHAHA.
all the boys jumped on fido while fido sang
from autum to ashes. out of tune can fido? [:
remember this kay fido?

"emo kids can wank themself dryyy"
(: -PS, i use to like to be labled. but now i dont ((: so.. i'm just NIKITA :D

oh and i threw sonny's slippers away from him
so he attempted to get revenge by wrestling me to get my shoes :D
hahaha!! & On the way back from the toilet
i approached the wrong people who i tot was my group
awww, nikita pussy.
OMG. PAISEH LAH ):

oh oh!!! and my bruise wouldt go away!?! )':
Moshing is fun dammit. but the bruises
are always a pain in the arse. seriously
anyway get better soon sweets ♥

jealous? perhaps just a tinsy bit other then that i'm very

proud & happy for them. yup2 definatly (:

never try to break me apart from them cause i love them very much

the ex's week

2007-01-23T19:19:00.000+08:00

i have pictures from sunday's jamming day!
the band is whicked guys
seriously (: you guys do a badass
cover for the devil wears prada :)
i like the keyboard :D
mike good :D
faz sticks fly everywhere which is hilarious :D

this is the gang having dinner after jamming
oh yeah minus me, nick & bianca.
we were the masterminds behind this picture.
KIDS MEAL. <3

yeahh this was at esplanade we were boredd so
random pictures of people. ((:

eheheh. this picture is of my hair seriously.
not trying to be vain. i wanted to see how it look like cause
sonny helped me with it ((: thank you again ^_^

well yup thats mostly about it.
:) nothing neww.
oh & one last thing i think this past 2 weeks is
like the EX'S week.
i have seen 4 of my ex's this past 2 weeks.
and i'm not just saying it i swearrrrr.
& its starting to be freaky cause
if i meet 1 its okay 2 is a coincidence
but 4 times for me its just like :l
god must hate me. ahahaha kidding2
audreys so gonna kill me for saying this BUH BYE :D

simply heart melting baby

2007-01-19T18:26:00.000+08:00

i was in the school foyer when
i decided to sent you something random
and the responce i got back is simply heart melting baby (:
please dont let me down
anyway on the way home from temasek poly i saw alex & madee!
hehe the cutest couple luh gtg my mums now take care peeps

xxxo,
Nikita

160107

2007-01-17T21:56:00.000+08:00

160107-

yesterday's first date was perfect (:
talking on first dates make me feel calm
of corse i had the butterflies in my tummy before i met him
and maria's smses to calm me down naturally didt help at all. haha!
but after 15mins of silence & a little akwardness
everything when fine.
and when you played with my hair
my heart skiped faster then usual. haha!
lets see where this first date will lead (:

xxo,
Nikita <3

second day of school

2007-01-04T22:15:00.000+08:00

second day of school!
hmm today was pretty arite
comparing to first day
the lessons before recess were hell boring
but i loved pe. (:
kept me awake.
drank coffee for recess that made me happy too.
then had geo love my geo teacher. i'm satisfied
and miss koh! haha we all missed her very much.
urms what else. thats pretty much it
went home early
and it rained. so yay [:

today nick and me were trying to solve a mystery
haha (: we're confussed about something but yeah shall
not say much about this matter.

urms, i know i just talked to mdm mas about a particular matter
her advice is good but why cant i seem to apply her good advice onto my matter?
what am i holding back? i guess this is who i really am.
i'm afraid of letting go of the past.
i throw evrything i have before me before looking at the conciquences.
and i dont have regretes just dissapointments

xxxo,
nikita

BORING

2007-01-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

first day of school hmm
boring.
it sucks to wake up at 5am in the morning.
take a train where everyone is packed like sardines
get off at tiong bahru all tired and then get squashed again in the bus...
anyway on the first day of school,
nikita has already broken school rules.
hoho talk about tough luck.
my hair wast dyed properly?
still could see red highlights under the fucking cheebai sun.
then had to sit at the netball court only to realise that
the number of people who didt dye back their hair this real has decreased in number
from last year. crap.
yeah anyway i fell asleep during bio. :l
me & praveena couldt pay attention one word. BORINGGG.
errr. after school went to see mdm mas.
we talked about how my holidays went.
i was kindda emotional trying to tell her about what happened during the past week.
she gave me a hug and a cookie. <3
haha :D thats why i love her. grrr.
anyway she made me realise that if i truely really do love him as a friend
i'd truely be happy for him and i wouldt be jealous in anyway
and on the way home on the train i kindda realised what she said was true.
i did love him and i still do love him
but i never did love him as a couple way.
i loved him as my truely close friend (:
i now understand ^_^
now all i need is someone to layan me when
i'm bored ]:
one more word before i head to bed.
BORRRINGGGGGG.

oh & ps.
i miss everyone alot even though its only been a few days since we've meet ]:

new year~!

2007-01-02T01:46:00.000+08:00

HAHA NEW YEAR IS THE SHIT. THE BEST OF THE BEST.
IT WAS EVERYTHING I WISHED THE END OF THE YEAR WOULD BE.

first
went to meet epul & susu and went for our last gig of 2006
at first had alot of chinonehs singing weird songs it was so pussy
so me ,nick ,epul ,susu watched white chicks in a corner
of gas haus. haha!
then meet tasha there for the first time, very sweet girl
mostpit was acceptable (:
but niki didt mosh had cramps ):

after
after the gig we decided to walk to esplanade
to go watch fireworks.
anyway EPUL! :D piggyback me more. LOL. FUN SIA.
i like to piggyback u too MUWAHAHA.
then make u fall. okok random
went to long john meet yue tong there
still looking pretty :D
susu like's her AHAHAHA.

once at
esplanade we meet with susu's whole skater grp
they dressed damn classy that day cause they were
going clubbing i think..yeaa
listened to electronic songs
epul left early to go home and take care of his gf.
AWWWW sweet huh? :D
followed the grp & sat infront of fullerton
and waited for fireworks.
the fireworks were okok lahhh..
nothing big but still had fun our grp of 20+ peeps
were like the only people screaming and shouting happy new year sia.
singaporeans are B-O-R-I-N-G

after
that walked around and wished people in cars and roads happy new year
and wished cisco police men & women ahahaha hilarious.
kayy kayy after that me & nick & charlotte realised we were heading in the wrong direction
so said bye to susu & the rest of the gang and went to meet up with faz's grp.

past 12am
we sent charlotte back then went to buy mixer for drinks.
went to drink with faz's whole grp and apparently nikita was first to get high and later drunk.
alex, mike and sonny got drunk too.
wooo nikita's mission is half completed nikita is happy.
just left faz. :l
need to get him drunk nabei...
sadly nikita cant write any more stuff cause she cant remember what the hell she did AHAHAHAHA
but she has photo's so enjoy laughing. nabeii
and bear imma go get u for taking picture of my asscrack >:]

susu,me,nick!

camwhoring with epul! :D

this is how nikita looks like when she's high :(
PAISEH AHH

sorry ah nick. *blush blush*

sorry ah faz *blush blush*

lastly thank you whoever took care of me when i was high.
espacially nick & faz shank euuz.

xxxo,
Nikita

goodbye 2006

2006-12-31T12:10:00.000+08:00

just decided to post my last post of 2006 :D
before having the time of my life
been a really interesting year
love the new friends i've made and the old one's who's stuck with me thur shit.
love the people i've fallen in and out of love.
and most of all i really do truely love my family.
without them i'd be boring, old and pathetic. (:

these photo's are dedicated to a few special people <3

this one is for you epul
these past few days meeting with you have been
a real blast :D you & your HA-HA-HA
and nick & me stealing your cap. its been real fun <3

this is for nick, charlotte & charlene.
i'll never regrette meeting you & charlene for the first time
:D i love getting high with you and laying on grass watching shooting stars <3
charlotte girl you bad ass. you funny :D
and remember girl cats do not eat grass <3

this picture is for a few lovely people
such as tasha, zul, farhan, ariff & zack
people like you are fun to hang out with <3
:D shud do it more often though.

this for the vain king himself & vain princess herself.
LOL :D aL! ASSWIPE LUH. i love euux worxz.
even iifff U forgotten niki ]:
<3 must hang oUt more cHEeBaii.
SYAZ :D
my beloved twin who can forget
a vain princess like you.
"niki.. is my hair okayy??"
tehehe i lurve you luh! <3

last but not least this is for FAZ :D
i know how much you liked this picture <3
i wantted to save it for the rest of the pussy burger & cock light gang
but then i tot NAWWWHHHH this photo is owned by you! <3 :D
thank you for taking care of nikita when she's high ((:

YEP THATS ALL. if ive forgotten you. my bad. (:
AND ANOTHER THING. ALL THE PHOTO'S ARE MY FACE
CAUSE NIKITA IS BAD ASS YOU MOTHERFUCKER. [:
KANINA. HAVE FUN TODAYYYY ^_^

for you sweets

2006-12-30T01:32:00.000+08:00

i feel sad now, i dont know why really...
i was kindda happy just now but on the way back i saw you.
it kindda hurt me to know you were trying to hide away from me.
i know i might not be the girly girl you wish i was or the girl
that will always be there for you when you needed her,
but thats just who i am.
i'm nikita, i'm not your bimbo, ah lian or minah who decides
that i'm going to fuck the next guy who i think is hot.
or i'm gonna make out with whoever i see so that my status remains.
i'm happy with where i am. who i mix with.
and you trying to make me feel like i'm not that perfect "myspace" girl
is't gonna make me feel any better. so
i just want you to know that it makes me happy to know your happy.
i really dont want us to act like strangers just cause of what happened before.
it makes me happy to know she wants you the way you want her.
i just hope the next time we meet you'd acknodlage me again.
take care. <3

xxxo,
Nikita

and merry christmas and happy new years (:

jared!

2006-12-29T01:46:00.000+08:00

sigh its 2.13am now and i'm pretty much bored.
haha (: been chatting with a few peeps
ruby, faz , nick , fauzi.
anyway i think i have developed interest in
the lead singer of 30seconds to mar jared leto ♥
hahaw! he's fine!

how can you not like a face like that.
tagg and tell me what you guys think ((:

i'm finish with you ):

2006-12-28T19:09:00.000+08:00

yesterday went out with nick & faz.
first time meeting faz thought it'd turn out
to be akward those kind but turned out to be
majourly fun really.

as usual me & nick went to burger king
and instead of asking for coke,
we asked for cock light.
and faz was practically laughing at the back.
and i couldt tahan any longer i laughed damn loud.
AHAHAHA :D

after that urms we went drinking.
APPARENTLY, i got high. LOL.
but what the fuck lah.
i dont remember anything.
I ONLY REMEMBER.
i calling faz my stalker.
and throwing something at faz
and umm ummm. YEAH.
LOL. fuck my memory damn bad.
HUAHUA. when i came to my senses i
was fagging. xD
i think sticks are seriously my best friends. LOL.
nabeii. first time meet faz and already high.
Fucking funny.
ANYWAY.

today went out with daddy & nicholas.
got a few new stuff from town.
firstly, got my school shoes
then got my new white headphones. MY BABY. $49 dollars. piiang.
i paid for half & managed to persuade my dad to pay for the other half.
then bought black hair dye for school.
got my foundation cause it broke that day when i went out with epul's grp.
ERRR. and got a magazine for me to read while its fucking raining.
nabei. the rain ah. damn fucking chebaii.

tmr planning to head out with nick & charlotte.
yayyy ((:
i need to lepak outside.
HOME = BORING.

oh yeah and i'm gonna promote outing here.

ME & NICK ARE GOING FOR A GIG ON 31ST TILL 10.45PM
THEN HEADING TO MEMO TO DRINK AND WATCH FIREWORKS
THEN HEAD TO THE END OF ESPLANADE TO HAVE A SMALL BONDFIRE
WITH MARSHMELLOWS.
WHOEVER'S INTERESTED PLEASE NUDGE NIKITA ON MSN.
OH YEAH AND FUCK. DONT TRY TO BE A SMARTASS AND ASK ME & NICK
TO PAY FOR YOUR CHEBAI GIG TICKETS & FOR THE DRINKS & MARSHMELLOWS . WE'RE NOT YOUR MUM
love you peeps! ((:

xxxo,
Nikita

merry kiss-mas!

2006-12-25T13:08:00.000+08:00

yesterday was the sex, i swear.

First

when to meet syaz,
she followed me to meet him. passed him the gift
and then went to follow syaz mamam kat cini.

After

meet epul and sham.
i just love to disturb epul lah
he's so god damn fucking funny.
i took the spray can and sprayed him and he screams
like a girl its hilarious and stealing his cap is like joy.
ahaha! epul ate all the cookies! :D
LOL NEVER SHARE.

After

then i sent syaz home and fetched nick.
bought drinks went back to meet epul again
uurrrms. then epul decided to be ROBO-COP.with susu's funny chemistry goggles.
HA-HA-HA.

Then

went to memo lepak for awhile
minum sikit. fagg sikit. laughed ALOT.
ahahahaha. susu's damn funny.

nikita tells susu what happens when he was drunk the other time :
"i dont have a lanchiow (how the fuck to spell dick in chinese sia) i only have a pussy
susu: you dont be pussy lah you!
nikita: yeah i do have pussy so do you!
susu: you nak gadoh uhh?
nikita: tak pe i tau my assets bigger then your daaaahhhh
susu: how you know sia. got see mine before?
nikita : LOL. you weneer sia you!
susu: pussy.

ahahaha! fucking funny i swear.after lepaking and everything
susu, epul & the rest of the guys went back.

After

that me & nick decided to drink by ourselfs. ahahaha!
we got so fucking high laughing at every single thing
that wast even funny.
there was a point where i was like emo & tired.
nick brought me to makansutra to get cock light.
then i saw ENEMIKO.
*FAINTS*
he is my defination of fucking fine.
all guys should look like him.
i swear when i saw him i like immediatly was woken up :D

After

went to meet some other people at the rocks
after me & nick drank
she super high already
we tonned sampai pagi,
she puked from over drinking
Nick cute sia she. LOL :D
ouhkay lah i shall go now,
my adik dah marah
he want to open christmas present.

MERRY KISS-MAS EVERYONE <3
jangan minum banyak banyak! ahahahaha

xxxo,
Nikita

OMFG

2006-12-11T21:12:00.000+08:00

i'm such a fake, a fag and such a whore at that.
i feel like taking the longest knife and poke it through my selfish heart
and slowly bleed to death.
its wrong and i know it
but i cant help but feel like i like it.
the more i hold on to what i need to express
the more i know i'll hurt you.
but i cant seem to spit it out.
i want to hold on
i want to believe
but i know at the end of the day.
its all fake.
i keep lying to make myself feel better.
i cant keep this in no longer.
i'm going to have tell you soon
before i come to a stage where i can never forgive
myself if i know i've hurt you.
i cant lie no more

nikita <3
elmo. )':

E_N?

NICKKKKK.
I FUCKING WANNA DRINK, MOSH, LEPAK, DANCE, MAKE OUT, EAT SWEETIES, STEAL EPUL'S CAP,HAVE SPRAYCAN SESSIONS, WEAR BURGER KING CROWNS, HIT YOUR NERDS, WATCH MY TAEKWONDO NERDS IN SHOCK AS I FAGG, HEADBANG, CUT OURSELF, CRY WITH YOU, TALK CRAP, JUMP, LAY ON GRASS AND WATCH STARS, LOOK AT DRUMMERS, GO FOR GIGS AT GAS HAUSE, HAVE MINI DRINKING SESSIONS WITH SUSU AND SUHAIMI AND AND EVERYONE OH AND MOST IMPORTANTLY OF ALL FAGG TILL NEXT YEAR AS WE DRINK AND WATCH FIREWORKS.
I LOVE YOU LUH NICK. [:

drinking

2006-11-21T16:51:00.000+08:00

lots to post
lets start with the move on saturday.

SATURDAY
the move was hecktic.
but it wast all bad.
had the help of willy & vien.
after the move went with the both of them
around tampines at night,
played the swings while they skated.
i emoed in the end.
roar.

SUNDAY
sunday was the most fun i had
last week.
went to vanessa's house for her birthday party
they played water bombs while i shoot
everything with rachels camera
ate spagetthi in an empty house.
drank & fagged
omg. i taught them how to fag
like wot the fook.
hmm who cares.
wahahahahaha i was super high that night,
whheee wheee. [:

MONDAY
Monday, went to meet aL & his cousin first
they went to play pool
while i used the computer for butch hunting &
emo boy hunting. myspace boys. HURHUR.
okay yup then meet syaz & diyanah
we went to youthpark to take a glance at danial.
it was SUPPOSE to be a glance.
but aL & his cousin & syaz HAD. just HADDDD
to scream out his name and point to me
roar. i felt like hiding under a stone. x)
PAISEH LAH.
ahaha then i chabot. cause i felt uberly paiseh.
hurhur. aL & his cousin left after that
and me syaz & diyanah went to bugis to meet
some guy working at esprit. HURHUR.
syaz is so shy luh LIKE ME!
lol in the end i had to like talk to the guy for syaz
and say "hi you know my friend syaz right she malu to talk to you"
then i walked away HURHUR.
after that encounter was suppose to meet another one of syaz friend.
some guy named farhan
but he didt turn up so yehhh
then danial smsed me asked if wantted to head home together.
so i decided what the heck might as well.
so yeahh! (: thats the story morning glory.

TODAY
today i slept throughout the morning.
watched stupid cooking shows cause my computer is
still here at outram not at tampines.
stupid dumbfuck
when i left the house to head here
danial smsed me and asked to take the same train towards tiong bahru
meet him and his friend fab (:
yup2 & i'm about to leave for taekwondo now
which i really DO NOT.
i repeat DO NOT. wish to go for.
but i havet been going for like 2 months.
& i suppose its better now or never.

PS. WHOEVER WANTS TO GO DRINKING WITH ME
& NICK TOMORROW. PLEASE SMS ME. <3
96808159
I AM NOT A FREGGIN SLUT.
just cause i put my number there.
i mearly want to drink :)
drinking is fun hurhurrrr <3
TOODLES.

sup ya'll

2006-11-17T16:14:00.000+08:00

hey people,
woke up at seven today
just to meet my mum at eight to watch
my brother at his school's graduation day thingy.
it was kindda crap,but hey i'll give the school some credit
after all they did a pretty good job renovating the school
within 2 years,
well enough of that. After nicholas's whole
prize giving thingy was done me & mummy went to bugis
to get my hair done and mummy's nails done
while nicholas head's out with his friend.

so i dyed my hair red and i'm loving it (:
the colour though, not too sure if my hair will remain
this way tomorrow morning though well, i'll just hope for the best.
mummy went to get a french manicure.
was kindda boring waiting for her. but heck
she waited for me while i did my hair so i just waited for her.

after she was done
i headed home with my lovly new shades on
and my hair woot. i felt so supiriour. ;D
still i've got some last minute packing to do.
tomorrow's the big move.
yay, i feel happy cause now cause
i can meet syaz, diyanah, vien,zul, brian vanessa, rachel, aL, fairuz, haiqal, khrish ,nicki, veronica everyday wahaha (:
well not everyday somedays. Hahaw.
but i am gonna miss a few people here back at outram ):
like cheyanne! i just meet her & now i'm leaving how sad.
and my bus stop morning peeps! :D
next year i'll be taking the mrt
no more morning gossip ya'll how depressing but no worries! (:

anyway i asked vien if he wantted to help out
he said he'll think about it
he might be asking willy.
brian offered to help too so yeahh
i guess the 3 of them might come together
if not none will come Hawhaw.

so yeah thats about it really (:
if any of you peeps wanna help
me, my brother & my dad out with the move
do sms me [:
<33 nikita will be very thankful hawhaw.
take care lovlies.

xxxo,
Nikita

longpost

2006-11-15T23:40:00.000+08:00

haha i'm feeling oh so gay now,
why i also dunno roar.
gheysom.

SUNDAY :D
meet ezaty, umirah, dayang & jannah went to jalan raya

FUN SIA :D
but we didt get to go to ezaty's house & my house.
SEDIH NYE. tak pe okay ezaty next time ♥

TODAY :D
meet vien willy vanessa & brian

first followed vanessa to go buy sarah's present
then went to get my shades. YAY YAYY
nikita happy like dumbfuck sia
wahaha ghay.

AFTER THAT :D

vanessa went home,
willy vien me & brian went jamming
at first boring like hell sia.
then the last few mins at the ending fun :D
lol super fun sia at the end we played like 3 -4 good songs.

THEN:D

brian went home,
me willy & vien went vivocity
HAHA the both of them had fun playing in the water
vien took off his jeans & left his YELLOW boxers on.
woooots.
nice vien real nice.

AFTER THAT :D

bought my batteries for digicam.
STUPID DUMBFUCK SIA.
i just bought those motherfucking batteries
and they died so fast
didt take alot of pictures
OH WELL.
roar.

TOMORROW
roopan, desmond, prince & hopefully vanessa

gonna crash my house to play xbox.
fun but ive got a whee bit hickup
=_= i gotta pack my clothes
tmr for the move this saturday
BOO
looks like i wouldt be playing much xbox tmr.
anyway NIGHTS <3
Here are thy pictures <3

fcuk it

2006-11-14T21:59:00.000+08:00

someone told me something
which sort of hurt me indirectly.
but when a second person said something simillar
to what the first person said.
i began to question myself.
i soon began asking a few of my closest friends
what they thought.
the nice one's tried their best to give honest yet nice opinions
and the honest one's gave me straight honesty,
which made me feel more like crap
seriously.
i'm going to starve myself.
and be like her. skinny
nice hair. flawless
but then again i dont want to lose
my identity but why do i suddenly feel.
like i have finally known the reasons to why boys use me
as a spare tire.
i dont want to hear of it
yet all they want the face the body they want the full package.
not just the personality sad to say

camp!

2006-11-11T14:08:00.000+08:00

oh god camps finally over
but i dont regreat any thing (:
i'm happy i went for camp i really needed
camp. i needed to be away from daddy
and the computer like seriously.

WELL :)
camp was just shioke la seriously
i had uberly fun with geraldine, elain, ezaty (minah), evangeline, rebecca & Fatimah
haha! the formal dinner was kindda cool (:
the chocolate cake was so 0_0 day dreamy haha!
on the last day elain & ezaty crashed me & geraldines room
we tried to sneek out but boo that was a failure.
miss sim! :D LOL i think me & geraldine were laughing our ass outs la.
so anyway we ended up chatting & gossipping :D

i really needed the camp
i needed to laugh more then to ponder over
WHAT IF.
and cry over unnessary things in life.
during the formal dinner the guest of honour said something.
haha that sortta gave me encouragement.

nothing is engraved in stone.
you can change your future.
and thats when i thought about it,
my life in sec 3 was a bundle of confussion
and next year i cannot afford to still be in this bundle of confussion
i have finally decided next year onwards
i am really going to balance out my time between
play & work.

it's going to be tough
cause i already know for a fact
that i have deproved tremendosly in my results.
and new distractions like my friends in tampines
once i move there might distract me from studying
but i have agreed that i will study and i will pass
my n's & my o's (:

roar. suddenly i feel so inspired to move on
in my life positivly ;D LOL.
I MUST BE THE GHEYEST PERSON NOW.

anyway thats all folks LONG LONG POST.
will post photo's once i get them TOODLES.

depressed

2006-11-07T20:20:00.000+08:00

yesterday went to syaz's house
meet aL after that
fagged alot then went
to meet desmond & his gf
after his girl went
meet ropan & prince
then went for chalet
alot of drunkettes as usual
had gastric hurted alot
tried to fagg & drink my sorrows away
but no avail. & i promised ropan i'll stop
from today onwards
and i will. cause i will not dissapoint
my brothers (: desmond <3 prince <3 ropan <3
i felt asleep for 3hrs

& i swear throughout the entire day
there wast a time where i didt stop thinking
about our situation.
when i saw her all i saw was you.
why do i always feel like a spare tire most guys
use.. why...
right now i feel like sticks are my only friends
and i have to let them go.
wtf.

if i knew i'd feel this way
i'd have ignored you
and how you flirted with me
just to forget the pain you knew.
what about me.
its like you think i dont feel.
i wonder how it feels like
not feeling anything thats really true.

shitsia

2006-11-05T23:41:00.000+08:00

fuck sia,
i hate sundays.
our conversations feel different
and i dont want it to end just here...
its funny for someone like me to
like someone this much
espacially if i really just got to know
them within a week but i really do not wish it to end
and my motherfucking emotions arnt much of a
help either.. anyway
went for gig with auji & his gf alex
it was nice
meet quite a few familiar myspace people there
meet zul like HAH! :)
Then saw kinnnn (she was a real good screamer for a girl)
then saw ahem ahem. alyssa
saw sophie that paperheart girl
haha cool huh...but then i needed a something bad
so meet aL & susu to get it
haha bought 2 new earings
bought casing yer...
then on the way home i was majourly emo..
walked around the whole neighbourhood before coming home
played with the neighbourhood cats
my mood swing was creeping in...
i felt so small fuck it.
came home fought with dad
cried non stop from 10.30 till now
11.42pm I hate you for making me always feel as though
the divorce between you and mummy was all my fucking fault
you should just get married to that bitch
and leave me alone
give me money for school and food
i'll survive your motherfucker.
i'll survive..
i dont care sia tmr i'm gonna drink my lifeaway and see
my life go up in flames.

Bordem strikes

2006-11-02T13:53:00.000+08:00

I NEED NEW SONGS IN MY PLAYLIST.
feel free to give me songs.

today woke up around 11 and played around with my new speaker :)
after i showed i ate a donut and used the computer
and i'm bored like dumbfuck.
made plans with syaz for besok rayaing (:
oh joy keke.

i was on some website and decided to type my name
in the website and this is what came out kindda hilarious really

NIKITA

- Nikita begins the film as a teenage delinquent and heroin addict who attempts to rob the pharmacy run by one of her fellow addict's parents. (great not only am i a heroin addict i'm a robber)

- This turns into a firefight with the local police in which her friends are killed. (NOOO. my friends are killed!)

- She then kills one of the policemen in an apparent act of nihilism or vengeance. (REVENGE BABY DIE DIE DIEEEE)

- She is tried and sentenced, then apparently executed. The execution is however a fake (all the drama aint it?)

- she has been officially buried and listed as deceased, but in reality is now in the custody of DGSE, the French equivalent of MI6. (like HUH???)

- Here she is given the stark choice of either working for them as a government assassin or being executed for real. (seesh like she has much choice..)

- After some resistance, she opts for the former, and eventually proves to be a talented operative (her induction mission, the elimination of foreign dignitaries in an expensive restaurant, is perhaps the best set-piece sequence of the film). (once again HUH???)

- In due course she is allowed to leave the training centre, and begins a new life in suburbia with her boyfriend, a man she meets working at the checkout of her local supermarket (played by Jean-Hughes Anglade, the male lead from Betty Blue). (i actually date a supermarket boy in this show?!)

- Her covert career as an assassin continues, until a mission to recover documents from a foreign embassy goes spectacularly wrong. (HAHA why am i not surprised)

HAHA okay yeah so thats the movie NIKITA go watch it. =_=

YAY sorry if nikita is abit screwlose today... once again YAY

xxxo,
Nikita

sleepy sleep

2006-11-01T23:38:00.000+08:00

Today went to meet aL at orchard
got that hoodie i saw with anissa at forever21.
NICE SIA but if wear dont look emo uh.
but tak pe STILL NICE UH. gerek. :D

Then jalan2 at far east boring nothing nice..
went to heeren bought aL his birthday present (MCR'S latest album)
then went to bugis street nice sey that place...
its like the stuff there are super cheap

haha in the end i bought myself an ipod speaker.
NOT BAD SEY. $12 and its LOUD.
nice :D
okay nikita high about her new speakers. xD

Ummm then met aL's gf for the first time
CUTE SEY!!! :D they both look so cute together! haha!
from bugis we went to eunice's chalet in pasir ris
errr that was kindda stupid arh...
-_- but oh well it wast all bad. i get sticks & 4 nuggets & 2 peices of pizza. HAH like yay?
HAHAHAHA okok i really need to stop doing this -_-
ROAR. i hate doing it but i cant stop when i have nothing to do.
I'll help myself ahahaha. okok i'll shut up now.

After that went whitesands mac to eat dinner
abeh go home yay yay.
HAHA. i was hoping to see Dan online but
i think he's asleep. i miss him roar! [:
i think i shud sleep too its late haha!
NIGHTS peeps <3

xxxo,
Nikita

dan!

2006-10-31T22:58:00.000+08:00

This post is for Dan (:

dan your seriously cute lah
were you emoing just now because of that?
cause you gave me a shock when you asked me
that random question
can an emo boy and an emo girl be together?
and the answer from my head was
of corse you silly emo homo :D
and i'm not angry or anything (:
just dont be too emo alright.
i had fun just now so yeah
take care <3

and yes luh,
i do know you love me
the way i love you :D
*pinches you & runs away yet again*
ps, & i'm not kidding (: i'm the real deal. i'm for real :3

my heart-
Disini kau dan aku
terbiasa bersama
menjalani kasih sayang
bahagia kudenganmu

pernahkah kau menguntai
hari paling indah
ku ukir nama kita berdua
disini surga kita

bilakah kita mencintai yg lain
mungkin kah hati ini akan tegar
sebisa mungkin tak akan pernah -
sayang ku akan hilang

if u love somebody
could we be this strong
i will fight to win
our love will conquer all
wouldnít reach my love
even just one night
our love will stay in my heart
my heart

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NENEK ♥

XOXOXO,
Nikita
later my homies.

selamat hari raya

2006-10-29T23:07:00.000+08:00

on saturday went out rayaing
with kinky and her friends! :D
first time i meet kinky and she's just like i imagined her to be haha!
crazy fun and a little bit like the younger version of my mum
HAHA :D yeah well it was hell lots of fun going out rayaing
with them cause their kindda talkative of corse
i mean that in a good way most of the people i go out with
are quite and i tend to do most of the talking'
but that day it was nice for a change to hear people talking haha :D
yeah did quite a good collection :D
i mean man were their parents generous. =]
thank u uncle and aunties. hahas!

anyway next friday & saturday have round 2 of rayaing
at my place so siape siape want to go my house for raya
tell me kay i book timing for u all
NYWAHAHA :D today was pretty boring
nothing much to doo..
must go for camp training tomorrow
but i lazy sia. LOL.

actually i'm up this late cause i'm waiting for someone to talk to me.
=/ roar conffused. but instead someone else just talked to me just now
and i was like 0_0 BLINK BLINK.
like uhh why u talking to me...but i ignored her la of corse.
hahaha i'm mean
okok only here are the raya pics [:
dont laugh
i miss talking to dan =/

xxxo,
Nikita

PS. my freaking blog has got some ghey problem.

haha random

2006-10-26T22:32:00.000+08:00

haha today was the last day of school
HURRA HURRA
had mass pretty boring but "father"
was so cute he looked like santa clause. Hohoho.
haha! after that had project stc. (the name is so weird)
3mm didt win but rachel looks really pretty like some indian taj mahal princess haha!
after all the performances and stuff went to class to collect results.
quite dissapointed ]:
dropped alot but made it to sec 4na.
but still i noticed i dropped alot. hais nvm next year i swear
i'm gonna like go all the way for n level :]

after school me maria michelle des & the sec 1J clique
we all went to vivocity
its heaven there i swear the rooftop just so kickass its hell better then esplanade. (just the rooftop)
but esplanade is still my 2nd home HAHA ;D
anyway! we saw joyce there. haha and des made some joke about her and some other girl in her class
and it was a nice joke but funny at the same time
then me & maria & michelle laughed so hard and loud
that she turnned then i was like OMFG LOL!
but i couldt be much bothered if she is angry or not keep giving me attitude face what the hell la
never do anything to her right =_=
yehhh then it rained

me maria des and michelle were like crazy when it rainned
we ran & played in the rain & stuff then we played in the pool of water
maria threw my shoes into the water and my whole uni and shoes were wet.
i was practically a walking sponge.
haha yeah some people looked at us from the distance through the rain
but we were having too much fun to really care at all! :D

after that went home then kusmi took out disc 1 of my heart
so i joinned her again in malay movie marathon LOL
i cried. AGAIN watching my heart i swear that show is just a heartbreaker.
then watched puteri junung ledang that one is kindda interesting. :)
sweet la haha! like royal romance haha! hang tuah and the sultan eee yuck the sultan
so ugly lah =_= so many wife ISH ISH ISH tak malu.

umm then went online chatted with Kinky, ruby, Dan, Roshan and others.
daddy came home nagging as usual. crap ass. i swear.
UHHH then what arh oh yeah kinky invited me to go rayaing tomorrow with her friends so yup! tomorrow
going rayaing with kinky & other people i have never met before.
HAHA :) this should be interesting

thats all for today i guess :)
i want my phone to be fix or get a new phone was thinking of nokia 3250
what u guys think?
TAGGG and tell me <3

later peeps, ♥
Nikita
somewhere over the rainbow.
nikita sits on a cloud :D

my love

2006-10-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

And those are the photo's taken on friday
minus him. yay i hate him even though he got me a present
like at the last min i'm a bitch whatever.
anyway i hate daddy & will forever hate him
cause he likes to vent his anger on me & to whack me whenever he feels like it
i can no longer stand his childish behaviour so fuck him fuck him fuck him
i dont care if this is the ramadam period whatsoever FUCK HIM
U HEAR ME? FUCK HIS ULTRA FUCKING EGO. THERE. I. SAID. IT. I HATE HIM.
okok now nikita is chilled.
hear this justin timberlake song.
haha! i just so adore it.
can i see us holding hands walking down the beach with our toes in the sand ♥
eeek! so classic. just ignore the beggining
its a little ghey with the cow bells.

later,
Nikita

thank you.

2006-10-12T22:39:00.000+08:00

haha yesterday was my birthday,
i wasnt really feeling excited or anything
infact i didt feel anything.

i did my lit & ss exam papers in the morning
before school eneded i
received a cute thingy toy from evan
a teddy bear from audreywong,rebecca & yossie
a really nice card from audreytan
umm yeah and wishes from the rest

when i came home it was pretty much
me studying for exam papers the following day.
received flowers from mummy. she's sweet i love my mum.
daddy & me gave each other the cold shoulders.
we just cant communicate i swear.
ummm but i received $50 from daddy & aunty jeniffer
so. thats $100 i just gotta wait till hari raya
and pray hard that i'll have enough to buy my
nintendo ds lite. yerrrp.

whatelse. hmmm today after school went out with maria & evan
and judy tricia & the rest they didt know how to go
to esplanade rooftop haha so classic.
so me & maria taught them.
cute sia they all. ummm after that me evan maria went to suntact city's
rooftop it was freaking fun there i swear.
the sprinklers went on when me & maria were sitting on the grass but
i got up in time & maria got wet LOL :)
okay yerrrp thats the only interesting thing that happened through out my week.

boring huh. yerp. my life's pretty screwed. so yeah whatever.
haha nights :3 thanks maria & michelle & evan for making today
the best "post birthday" thingy for me haha :) i needed it.

hmmm

2006-10-08T21:28:00.000+08:00

yesterday & todays sucks balls.
i lost a good friend & gained a new enemy.
woo fantastic. all thanks to nikita's ULTRA ego
& stupid pmsing. i swear i'd rather be friends with you
then lose you as a friend just cause of this stupid phase. yeah.

vien : what shoe... yeah his shoe. but dunno lar.
mkay : lol... we're not together (:

highness

2006-10-05T17:41:00.000+08:00

hey peeps (:
yesterday went out
to study at bugis library
omg lar i swear another chemistry equation
to remember and my brain cells will eventually die
out of extingsion. (nikita's spelling sucks balls)

after that suppose to go look for syaz's and ajin's birthday present
went to bugis street the stuff there are actually seriously nice!
and not to mention cheep! but the band tee's there
look hardcore gheysom.
it looks so, cheep-ass shit. ahaha! :D

yeahh didt manage to find anything nice there
for them so went to suntact city
once there went on a hunt
high and low larr. but most of the shops were selling like sentimental stuff.

didt really wanna get them sentimental stuff.. wantted to
get them something crazy ahaha! :D went from stupid giftshops
to carfore to minitoons and still nothing lar.
before of giving up
this OH SO WONDERFUL shop appears out of no where. *i'm so drama* =_=
yeah its a classic place u plastic people go to
when you were kids.
yeah in there finally found them the cutest couple gift :)

^_^ okay thats all tomorrow malay exam
BOLOX!!! ahahaha
HAPPY BIRTHDAY NETIA :D
later peeps.

xxxo,
Nikita ♥

sup my nigga's

2006-10-02T16:28:00.000+08:00

friday was crazy
i felt angry sad and well confussed.
but i have great friends vien, syaz and willy ♥
haha thank you guys and girl for making "sitting in the playground"
super fun Haha! (:

saturday's plan for drinking
was ruinned by rain BOO.
so, alex willy & nikita watched john tucker must die.
haha kindda cool ((:
and the rest of the day was nice

sunday plans were almost ruinned
but he agreed to follow me to watch evangeline
and flowers. haha yay (:
guess i've gotten over the asshole really quick.
probably cause we never really had anything in comment
and he never did respect me.
haha i'm just hopeing we dont screw this beautiful thing we have right now ♥

oh yeah psssst, nine days hehe.
later guys oh yeah one last thing
STOP POSTING ABOUT ME ON MYSPACE BULLITIN.
I'M NOT DUMB DORRRR.. =_= i know its about me argh
still love u asswipe.

xxxo,
Nikita

whee.

2006-09-19T18:14:00.000+08:00

hey peeps (:
today he apologised to me. haha
i tot the way he apologised was so sweet haha ^_^ oh well,
guess he was feeling mood out or something.
oh yeah ruby asked me what i wanted for my birthday.
i sat and thought. and didt know what to say.
SOOO i did some thinking at home and.
TADAAAAA.

Nikita's wishlist
ruby you made a horrible mistake about asking me this ^^

1) electric guitar with amplifier!

2) guitar lessons from anyone once i receive this electric guitar HAHA!

3) Nintendo DS. *i want i want i want*

4) Games for my nintendo Ds once i get it. ( ps. yes i do know i'm a nerd. but i happen to be an emo nerd i play old school nintendo)

5) NEW FULL ZIP HOODIE. [ps, its BLOODY hell expansive]

6) new band shirts *in particular bands such as silverstein, amber pacific, fall out boy, from first to last, hawthrone heights*

7) a partner to have a new peircing with me (: (ps. u pay for my ear peircing) HEH!

8) digital camera. *this i can wait (: *

9) own room (this i think i have already not very sure hmmm)

10) scene hairstyle. WOOTS my mum going to bring me to the hairdressers this saturday hopefully it turns out great *wish me luck!

11) new handphone casing [mine has got a kezillion scratches from baybeats WOOO mosh baby mosh!]

12) band posters (help you help me get a good present to help me help myself to have the scenest bedroom in tampines!)

13) girl boxers! *blush* i wanttt.. ):

14) new jeans. *this i can wait*

15) new headphones! I dont want those sort like the ones on the ipod i want the old school ones! the biggie ones! :D
white puhleaseee.

so yeah I'M THICK SKIN I KNOW I KNOW. shut the hell up
anyway ...

23 MORE DAYS TO NIKITA'S BIRTHDAY YA'LL PREPARE PREPARE! NIKITA DOEST WANT TO HAVE JUST A BLOODY EXAM PAPER ON THAT DAY CHEER HER UP!

later peeps!